slowly drifting to the ground

she’s really on to something here

(8/30) What have I learned recently ? -> Learning French is not linear at allll. The first lesson I had with my tutor we were chatting so fluidly but today I really struggled to generate thoughts in French 🥲 It’s okay though, I’m still a lil sick now so the next lesson will go better 📖✨

The Library of Nicholas II, tucked away in a corner of the Winter Palace which is now the home of the Государственный Эрмитаж.

This is my favourite room at the Hermitage – there are so many (many) opulent and beautiful rooms here, but this one is one of the smallest and quietest and, in a way, the most thoughtful and carefully crafted in its atmosphere.

Literally what did olivia laing say about loneliness leading to more loneliness. Loneliness being so repulsive that people sense it from you and stay away. Crazy crazy

Furthermore:

you don't need to be productive all the time. you deserve to take breaks. you don't need to try and fill every small gap with something productive to do. you are allowed to just sit on the bus and stare out of the window or listen to music or whatever you'd like, there's no need for you to use every small moment for revising or learning. you are allowed to use all those moments to just relax and breathe, and you should.

everyone always sayin to me "not to be weird" you have to be weird. you have to be weird for your health

i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

A Chevrolet Fleetmaster aka the "Woodie Wagon" squeezes through the Tunnel Tree. Sequoia National Park

1949

progress can come in so many forms.

forming a routine. getting more sleep. showering more often. eating more than one meal a day. finishing an assignment on time. allowing yourself to take breaks when you need them. drinking more water. going outside more. spending more time socializing. not going to events that are draining. cleaning the dishes before they pile up.

some things seem like little steps that we barely acknowledge, but every one of them is a part of progress.

shakespeare wasn't lying that tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow can creep in this petty pace from day to day

neither was Smash Mouth. the years start coming and they don't stop coming

They hurt you. You will likely carry that for a long time. It wasn’t fair. You’re allowed to say that.

I get so tired of people who respond with “life’s not fair,” or “you’re letting them win by holding onto the past.”

Yes, it’s important to move on and not let it run your life, but it still wasn’t fair. And sometimes, we need to let that out.

Denying us that or making us feel bad about that is very invalidating. It’s okay to be angry, sad or whatever else and acknowledge the wrong that was done to you.

goodnight everyone (:

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i think makeup can be artistic expression i also think sometimes people are lying about it being about artistic expression and would in fact be a lot happier if they had never been told they had to wear it

the litmus test i use for this on myself is asking myself the question of "am i trying to bring something about myself out-- be it physical or emotional-- or am i trying to hide something?"

if you're using contour to hide a double chin it's not art anymore. i've had to tell myself this many times. you are worthy of being seen as you are. yes it is very scary but it's worth every second.