being in your twenties is like I should've k*lled myself but now it's too late

quote from Pan’s Flute ⚜︎

literally all i think about is how much i want to be loved. i'm distracted at work. i can hardly focus on my little shows. i don't do my chores at home. i can't read. i can't write. the only thing in my brain is yearning and longing. there is no space for anything else and it's killing me. i want to forget this feeling so bad!! please just let me do my laundry. please just let me write my papers for work. please let me check out and enjoy a good book or an intriguing movie. i can't keep doing this.

I have been able to see that people who come into my life are only here for a season. I realized that I am a loner and people come to teach me. One of the hardest things about that is the “lesson” keeps repeating until I get it right.

He doesn’t really care about me, I can see it. But yet, I don’t want to admit it. I want him to care about how I feel, care about my insecurities, the films and music I show him. I. Just. Want. Him. To. Care.

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