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SEASON 2 HERE I COME

I’m terrified to ever tell anyone I’m Anorexic because I know they’d just laugh because I’m fat and nothing else.

Acurate enough.

Fat Beats Los Angeles circa 2010

the owner shut the spot down so I could shoot before it closed down for good.. 

ph|| photos by stokes

It pains me to talk about babies, and see them smiling knowing that you are no longer with me. I hope that where ever you are, you know how much mommy loves you, and how sorry i am. Missing you every day, at all times.

105.4 lbs

that is a ridiculous number, by ridiculous i mean atrocious. I have fats spilling all over my person. To make matter worse, I have an uncontrollable urge to eat, all the fucking time. God why. Seriously, why. Why did you make me oh so fat? why can’t I be taller? I probably wouldn’t have to deal with any of this if I’m taller, stronger, maybe. 

Fat boy chronicles. Cousin bought me Nutella.

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Going back to IP since I’ve got so much left over from my last attempt! Tonight was fajitas because it’s my favorite. I think I’ve posted fajitas on my blog more than anything else. I used to eat it like EVERY night!

Now that I’m finally feeling back to normal after a crappy year of mystery health issues and 3 surgeries in 5 months, I’m ready to commit to healthy eating again. It’s been a struggle to find the will power to do it (even though I know I’ll feel 1000x better once I switch!), but now I’m finally ready :)

Another reason to switch is after 8 years of trying to figure out weird symptoms and being given incorrect diagnoses by multiple doctors, I FINALLY found out I have a severe gluten allergy, so I’m eliminating gluten and dairy from my diet, as well.

I’m looking forward to getting back into blogging again! It’s been hard to keep up with it when I feel like I only had complaints to share, but now I’m working towards something positive and blogging helped coect me with so many people on the same path :)

there’s a sonic drive thru up a little hill next door to my work and I walked over there the other day and was telling the carhop about cute work dude and when I left, he was walking up the stairs to sonic and I’m 900% sure he heard me refer to him as “the hot guy I work with” cuz he was all “oh,...

I rock these braids and this weight.

7g. Net carbs today :) I feel I did pretty well. I forgot to order my burger lettuce wrapped so it came with a bun and I just removed it without a second glance. I was also just offered Armenian pizza and I was like “nope, I’m doing too good for that!”

I’m going back to the gym tomorrow.

I started some new anxiety medicine today and one of the side effects are drowsiness but luckily I have been good all day :) I have to take another one before bed so hopefully it will help me sleep.

I’m still ecstatic about losing 21.5 inches in only two weeks!!! :D

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