you deserve it, girl baby

also there was an account (who did not follow me btw) message me and say that i talk a lot about my ex. i sure do. this is my safe space. and i’m essentially talking into the void without my irl friends seeing it

guys i was trying to find this guy i’m texting’s social media bc i met him on a dating app and he coincidentally has the same name as my ex. as a joke i decided to see if i could look up my ex bc he had no social media when we were together and i found an ig with both his first and last name and it only had one follower. a girl. i went to the girls profile and looked up her vsco and she’s my ex’s new girlfriend. the scream i silently scrom. i am at PEAK delulu status bc i still believe that he’ll come back. when. idk. but i am in fact straight up DELUSIONAL

life is boring when you decide to stop stalking your ex and focusing on bad habits

getting your heart broken is crazy because you’re sad for months and then one day you realize it was never that serious

men used to write love letters now they tell you that you look like you give good head as the first message on tinder

y’all so i texted my ex on nye and wished him a happy new year, told him i was glad we met and i appreciated our time together, and i was proud for what he’s done so far and continue to wish him well and he goes “i have a girlfriend” ok well fuck you i guess. i was just trying to be nice and NOWHERE did i say i missed you or wanted you to give us another chance 😭

sometimes i think about this guy i dated and how i thought we were going to be bf and gf and how he was my soulmate but looking back, i really had to force myself to like him. he would ask me if he could kiss me or grab my ass and i’d be like yes :) and on the inside i would be rolling my eyes like “damn here he go AGAIN”

making my last dumb decision of the year by adding my ex on snapchat after blocking him 🫡

this christmas is kind of disappointing this year. not only is it not christmasing like other years but i thought i had someone to spend this christmas with. not only christmas, but also thanksgiving and even new years. it’s christmas eve and i just took a long shower, did a face mask, and will watch romcoms for the rest of the night. i thought this year was going to be different with me wearing matching pajamas with my man or spending the holiday at his house, but alas i am having a bittersweet night. i have to remember that i lived before him and i can live after him

i look really good today. what a shame if my ex texted me saying he wanted to talk and see me tonight