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~Allergic to capitalism~

@warriortomaiden / warriortomaiden.tumblr.com

Just a trans girl in a cis world. Cracking jokes and heads. Pronouns: she/her/hers
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pukicho

FUCK ART CLASS when I was a teen in Taiwan at this private school the dopey ass stupid ass art teacher asked everyone to draw these HUGE self-portraits for a final project. Does this oaf know so little of the human psyche that he would so callously expose students to such deep self-reflection? Does he not know the harm it could do? as I drafted the canvas with charcoal, deep-seeded blacks reigned an inescapable morose feeling to the portrait from the very beginning, to stare at myself and interpret what I should draw, a torturous affair that ended in a blacker, sadder reflection of my own soul, of my imperfections, my asymmetry. I felt as though my peers could see the true me, my horrible antithesis to self. Oh, the horror of this affair. What I wouldn’t do to strap this teacher to a chair against a mirror in some dark dark room, and simply let him stare at himself for eternity, as the shadows warp his face to that of a horrible unloved monster.

Do you think that your teacher was not once a student? That they did not stare into that mirror themself as a child? You are not challenged in your room at night, only outside among the people. If you wish to create, you cannot hide your truth.

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The Brutality (and some censoring) Of The Rumbar Deaths.

Similar to my piece on Yorki and his lil sickness, this is again just something that haunts me constantly and is honestly something I don’t see anyone else talking about. Maybe this is because I have Rumbar Pirates autism. The deaths of the Rumbar Pirates are often thought to just be the snippet we see during their final moments, however Oda paints a much darker picture, with such dark hues the anime had to censor some of this. To begin, I am going to introduce you all to a certain Rumbar Pirate. Pirates.

This is Madaisuki! He has a twin brother named Madawadasuki Mizuta!

These Mizuta boys are named this because they are the japanese pun of “I love DOTS!” and “Dots ain’t half bad!” We know they were young, and that they wanted to be just like Brook. (I will go over these statements a bit later.) They wore matching clothing, mirroring one another as some twins do, having a tight bond. We already know their candles were snuffed out too short, but do you know how this happened to each? Madawadasuki is shown in the Bink’s Sake flashback, blood pooling on his temple and matting some of his hair. He looks tired, but with a smile, plays on with the other remaining crew. That is the key word here, remaining. There were hundreds of men on this ship yet THIS is what we see surrounding Brook on the deck? Where are the rest. THAT is where Madaisuki comes in. 

Madaisuki does not die on screen, but his body, just the body, is gruesome enough that the anime had to censor it. When we find the young man, he is in one of the off rooms, looks to be the dining area, thrown onto the floor with his arms outstretched, with his hair still attached to the skull.

This is not the reason behind the censoring, no, the reason is the cause of death.

Plunged into his skull and back, pinning his body to the floor with his jaw still open, are his own weapons. His own swords pin his body to the floor, so even if he somehow survived the attack, he could not get up, however with your own blade through your brain case and into the blood spattered floor below you, that is not much of an option.

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This leaves a few things open for the reader to take in. Why is he tucked away in an off room like this? Well, it means the battle either continued into these rooms, not just on deck, which is more than likely shown by the shattered mirrors and doors in the bedrooms and hallways we see, or poor Madaisuki was cornered, and slain.

In any case, this means his brother either also saw this and continued to smile and sing for Laboon, or held a hope that somehow, his twin was just somewhere else, tucked away to die in peace. 

This is just one body, one upon hundreds, we know this because of a line Franky states so casually I am unsure if the anime added it; “We could not carry them all, we buried them here. The weight was too much for the Sunny to take.”

The weight was too much for the Sunny to take.

How many men died, because those multiple upon multiple coffins were not filled with bodies, but skulls. Only skulls.

If the ship cannot carry it, how do we expect BROOK?? He must hold grief for he was acting Captian, these things on his head alone, and knowing he failed his partner, my god, that must ache. To know you created widows, fatherless children, families who will never know if their little boys or men or partners or fathers would come home. No closure, only Brook, and the poison that caused the remaining light-hearted musicians to bleed out in their little heap.

When Brook picks up the skull of Madaisuki, a memory comes to mind. Perhaps not a recent one, for he knew them for many years, but one that stood out to him. One Oda chose for us to see as a representation of Brook’s thoughts;

“You’re awesome, Brook! Can you teach me to swordfight like you?”

We see the body, with his own weapons used against him, holding his corpse in place with a hole blasted through his brain. His polka dots he adored are spattered as well, torn where his ribcage was cut open. Brook failed him. He failed them all, in his eyes, not the viewer or actuality. And this breaks my heart.

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newttxt
“ain’t no one born into this world to be alone!”

happy birthday, robin!!! 🌸

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chalroe
A digitally drawn meme of One Piece's Cross Guild titled "every friend group got" in capital letters. The first panel is captioned with "fujioshi" and is completely blacked out with a hand in a white glove pointing at the viewer. The second panel, labeled "transgender allegory," shows Crocodile in front of the trans flag. The third panel, captioned "autistic individual" is a picture of Mihawk with his sword Yoru and gothic style windows of a church or castle behind him. The last panel shows Buggy, bent over and crying, a terrified grin on his face and is labeled "the struggler."
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Yorki and His Illness;
Oda really knew how to drive the knife in when it comes to the story of Yorki and his crew, man…

From the choice of scenes before we get to see the bed-ridden body to the actual real world equivalents, its really rough on the heart.

What we knew about Yorki, from the scenes right before the announcement of his illness getting worse, is both his confidence and his strength. The scene we get to see is his crew surrounding his brand new bounty, Yorki cheering and proudly proclaiming his joy for it. We see the great swaft of muscles on him, his chest fully exposed and his hair bright and fluffy along his shoulders. His face is clear, his arms fill out his coat, which is important later on, and he holds such a pride that he reminds me quite a lot of Luffy. We see him break up fights, offering advice to his men and we see him joking and drinking alongside his caring crew… and Brook. Brook is always by his side, during the mornings when he brushes his teeth, to the night when they drink side by side. They’re always together.

[ buff pirate cowboy! ] Until they’re not. Now comes the topic that may be a bit rough, the real life equivalent of what we see Yorki suffering from. I'll list the symptoms and y’all can make what assumptions you wish, and again, I’m not truthfully claiming its any REAL ILLNESS, but I mean simply it is inspired by, acting the same and such. We see a cold compress, so it’s bothering his body temperature. We see sunlit windows, open to the fresh air as if that could help. We see spotting across his face, and hands; small wounds, growing in number. We see his hair, like a mock halo loosely scattered across the pillow he lays in, and it’s stringy now, not glossy or kept. His mouth his covered by a mask, so they believe its airborne/touch. These sound to me, a lot like a certain sickness, one passed by blood which is interesting given the scenes we see before this are Yorki and the members who now are sick, sword fighting with a rival crew. The doctor states he's unsure what it is, but is treating it best he can, as what he believes it to be is unknown. But knowing what we do on old methods of that certain sickness, it would make sense. The mask helps, the spit and body fluids being a factor, but the idea of sunlight and fresh air helping is an olden falsehood. The men come into the room, and Yorki speaks to them through horse coughs, offering words of encouragement and laughing through the mask as they shuffle out. They know the truth of this serious matter, and Yorki does too. They leave, each crying their hearts out for perhaps they did not realize the truthful change until that moment. Brook certainly looks perturbed, staring blankly ahead at the bed. Note, most do not get too close to the bed, standing feet away, and not touching Yorki.

However, after everyone leaves, Brook remains to stand, away from the bed until called. Called. Yorki calls to him, stating his name as he always did. “Brook.” “Yes.” And Brook comes closer, but not quite to the bedside, staring ahead with a blank expression. Than Yorki leans over, and grabs his hand, and in a flash of a moment Oda CHOSE for us to see, Brook looks disgusted. He grimences, brow furrowing at the wounded hand that touches him, but than we see what he sees lying in the bed; a weeping, broken husk. Yorki has begun to weep, sobbing as his confident facade is broken and melted away in front of his Vice-Captian. And Brook melts too, dropping to his knees and forgetting all of these ideas of illness, tossing any safety away for his crew and himself just to make Yorki feel seen, or perhaps because of his own need to love his dying partner. He clutches Yorki’s hand, and now we see the true damage the illness has done; Yorki’s wrist is thinner than Brooks. His arm is gaunt, and we see the bone. He is withering away, has been for months it seems, but Yorki always was good at excusing it with a confident smile. But now, in the bed, unable to stand and wracked and eaten away by something we can only claim perhaps as some blood related illness, he weeps before his partner. “Brook-” “YES? My Captain?” “Give them HOPE.”

I’ll just include the rest of the scene here for your own enjoyment.

I could dive into the fact that Brook believes he failed those words, or the fact the crew did not just die of poison, and their deaths were so gruesome the anime had to censor it. The fact Brook continues to “give the crew hope…” or the way he mentions he may not have made it out of the triangle alive.

However! That is for another day.

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Kinda funny how much typical advice about anxiety fails if your transfem. "Nobody really cares what your up to just remember that" yeah yeah totally that feeling of being watched is totally irrational for me a transfem who loves in rural Appalachia

"What's the worst that could happen if they reject you?" Girl I don't even want to think about it

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Yuzu and Citra's team always presented themselves as very professional and very anti piracy, to the point that you would get banned if they could tell you haven't ripped your own legal copies when reporting technical issues or inquiring about long standing bugs.

I admire the attempt at the end of the day, I get it, but it doesn't do shit. Companies like Nintendo don't want us backing up our own data, modifying our own hardware, or playing rom hacks that act as patches on top of our legally purchased games.

In their eyes, it's all dirty illegal piracy and we're all criminals for daring to own and use our own shit as we please.

Being "good" will never be enough, you will never be the "ethical" emulator user.

So fuck it. Join the pirate horde. Embrace it. Encode all of your links into base64 so no one can tell they're links. Spread your roms and emulator files far and wide. Who fucking cares man.

And before anyone talks shit about the patreon money they received, one of the few established legal precedents when it comes to emulation, the Sony lawsuit that Bleem fought against and won (at the cost of their company) was over a paid software you could buy in a box at CompUSA.

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butchlinkle

One thing i keep seeing people say irt Yuzu is that "they deserve it, they were paywalling the emulator on patreon to make money off of TotK!! if they didnt have a patreon / if they didnt have early access, this wouldnt have happened! thats what they get for piracy!"

1. It is 100% legal to make a for-profit emulator. That was the outcome of the Sony VS Bleem lawsuit in 1998, which Bleem won. They went bankrupt afterwards however due to Sony continuously stalling the case and the sheer amount of legal fees that are needed to handle a lawsuit, which is probably what Nintendo was actually trying to do to Tropical Haze. Not wanting to go completely bankrupt, they decided to settle for a much smaller fee, with the agreement to discontinue distributing the emulators.

2. Yuzu was never once paywalled. All they did was provide the prebuilt binary for experimental builds one week ahead of the public release and access to a VIP support channel on their discord, but Yuzu is open source and you have always been able to build the latest version yourself for free, and PineappleEA also provided free to download unofficial builds of the latest versions of Yuzu.

3. Tropical Haze has always been staunchly antipiracy and if you asked questions or posted crashlogs that indicated you were not legally dumping your own copies of the games you would be promptly banned and denied support. Unlike Ryujinx, the other switch emulator who began patching things based on the leaked copy of the game, Yuzu refused to support the leak and did not start working on making the emulator support the game until after the game was officially out and they could dump their own copy of the game.

Tropical Haze were not doing anything illegal. Nintendo is just a very, very rich powerhouse who decided they didn't like what they were doing and were going to make their own laws.

Nintendo continuously describes emulation as illegal altogether, when this is obviously not the case, and is aggressively against homebrew even for consoles they do not support any longer.

Let's not forget that after they officially stopped supporting the 3ds, closed down its servers and its store, they pushed out an update specifically with the intention of breaking current homebrew methods so that people would not be able to give further life to the console they purchased. Why did they make Tropical Haze discontinue Citra? A 3DS emulator? What piracy are they stopping here? The 3DS has been discontinued and its games have been out of production for half a decade. There is quite literally no money that ever reaches Nintendo from the 3DS any longer.

They did this purely because they have zero interest in the preservation of games and solely in the money that lines their pockets. If the 3DS is no longer profitable, then nobody is allowed to play its games any longer. It doesn't matter that Tropical Haze was following all the rules, Nintendo does what it wants.

Stop eating the boot of the company that just wants to bleed you dry.

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Tumblr's reply to the situation with CEO's transphobia is pathetic and you should not be thanking them for doing the bare minimum of saying he's not speaking for them. They fucking thanked that bitch.

The affected trans women are still banned.

A transphobic manchild offered no proper apology. Or stopped. He is also still in his position.

Tumblr is still factually transphobic. Keep pushing.

Yet another deleted blog, fantastic

They know what they’re doing. They know exactly what they’re doing when they see their users speaking out and nuke them. There is no error or compromise here, this is active malice on staff’s part and they will continue to treat black and trans bloggers like dirt if you just let them.

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afronerdism

If and when Joe Biden loses the election this year, the most annoying thing to come from during the first week will be that white liberals will get on the Internet and blame everybody but the Democratic Party. They will blame Black people and Arab people and leftist and literally every single person, except for the failings of a party that has failed all of us For over a century.

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princelabia

im inventing a new bechdel test that you can only pass if your movie has two butches alone together smoking and maybe one of them grabs the other by the belt loops and then one of them puts a cigarette out on the other and then they start making out against a truck and maybe there's a little bit of teeth and tracy chapman is playing on the radio and we can hear them breathing and cut to black. or not. maybe not cut to black. i will leave that up to you but remember there is a right answer

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