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GO!GO!パラダイス☆

@lastmariachi / lastmariachi.tumblr.com

In where H talks about junk and reblogs stuff. Probably otome related.★ I will follow you as JUNKLUNCH
● Currently Playing: Code: Realize, Digimon Cyber Sleuth
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me: does something really, really stupid with my sleeping and/or eating schedule
me: this will be fine
arrested development narrator voice: it was not fine
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reotheleo

Can I just say, uh, I’m pretty sure noticing you’re asexual is harder than noticing you’re gay, straight, pan or otherwise. Like, I just read someone’s desciption of hitting puberty and, like, there’s nothing like that. There’s no sudden ‘boob’ moment, no sudden ‘fuck, I’d fuck that’ moment, not sudden anything. You just, like, plod on through life as usual going ‘oooh, that’s pretty, I’d like that hair’ or ‘oooooh, they’re nice, I’d like to be close to them’ but there’s no like, ‘oh, someone would want to fuck that but I don’t’, you know? You just- you don’t notice, you don’t realise everyone else has ‘had a moment’ but you haven’t, you just- keep going as you always have.

And then, much much later, you start to wonder why people are getting so caught up in drama for romance or sex, like, why bother? It’s not worth it, they’re not worth it, why are you doing stupid things for something that’s so- and then you wonder if there’s something wrong with you, start mentally over compensating. Like ‘uh, okay, um, who should I date? Who can I stand to date? Who could I stand to fuck?’ like- it’s not, it’s not something you want, but you want to fit in, to be normal.

Sometimes you don’t even know that you’re doing it.

Sometimes you don’t even know asexual’s a thing.

I dunno, I guess, I just feel like, uh, people should understand more?

idk sorry thank you for listening to me

Thank you for perfectly describing it.

It’s way more difficult to notice the absence of something, especially when you’ve never had it in the first place??

It’s like being born without a nose and then being expected to understand what things smell like because everyone ELSE has a nose.

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zeevkesley

My cousins took me to the loveliest café I’ve ever seen for my birthday.

Aoyama Flower Market Tea House in Harajuku — every 2nd Wednesday of each month, they gift each customer with two stems of the weekly flower. Today was sweet pea. My best friend and I are absolutely going back next month. (ig: cliones)

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