coping with feeling so alone out here by working so much overtime

Because then I’ll have something to DO and somewhere to BE while simultaneously working out one of my biggest stressors.

I got goals to kill this debt from moving, if I work literally 20 overtime shifts it’ll be gone. All gone. I already have 8 of those shifts scheduled, I can’t bank on working all of them but at least I have a plan.

It’s hard to be the only person who reaches out to ask to hang out, with little to no reciprocation.

I panic began applying for school this week and literally signed up to take some online community college stat course because it’s a prerequisite- like I totally won’t have a husband by 30 but maybe I’ll have a doctorate? Sure.

My vague life plan wth sam is now something I’m having to let go of because we just want such different things

All of my friends are finally in one place and I’m not there and it hurts

I kind of want to do travel nursing but also I don’t want to keep going to places where I don’t know anybody, I’m not good at this

I have been a really good plant Mom this week

I need to make sure I actually make an appointment with a therapist for real because I told Gretchen I would

Everyone here is dating people which makes it so much less likely that they’ll actually want to hang out with me, someone who is not their significant other

I’m happy to be going home for thanksgiving but I hate that I’m longing for it already and dreading the time after from November to March where I’m just HERE and it’s too gross for anyone to come visit me, and it’s winter and I’m just going to be cold and rainy and alone

Moving away is fucking difficult dude