THE THING IS I LITERALLY DO NOT CARE AT ALL

Feeling a little lost on how a boy who was such a huge part of my life could be gone so fast. I miss him so much it hurts. 

I am feeling so pathetic and sad. I’ve never had to give up on somebody before but I finally have reached my breaking point. It feels good to care about myself but I just can’t believe I’ve gotten here. I could have never imagined believing everything people said about him but I see the bad now. I’ve experienced the emotional abuse. I’ve experienced feeling so fucking helpless and useless. I can’t do it anymore. I’ll end up going fucking insane. I have to walk away and my heart is fucking broken. 

Getting all nervous because I’m afraid I was a conquest more times than I was a human connection. But I guess it doesn’t matter anymore because apparently that connection is dead. Hah. Boys.