who gave dracula the wifi password?

I swear to god I’m one day going to end up mute. My social skills are getting worse and worse all the time and I talk less and less; most of my responses to things are just one word answers like „yeah“ „sure“ or „right“ and I just rotate between them for some variety. I find it difficult to think of things to say, often, with everyone, in any situation. I‘m so worried that it’s one day going to make me lose friendships or at least lessen/worsen them. Maybe I won’t be the one people choose to talk to about stuff anymore because I have nothing to respond with. Maybe then they’ll stop talking to me entirely.

I‘m a heaux for love, I am, and I claim to love seeing all kinds of love (familial, platonic, romantic, whatever)

But

I love a good breakup!!!

A friend of mine is single for the first time since knowing him (over five years!) and not only do I (selfishly ofc) love the extra time it gets me with him, but I love how much HE is loving it. He said he feels freer, more energetic, like his bf had been holding him back, draining him, etc.

Obviously the only reason I’m liking this is because the relationship needed to end; it wasn’t a happy loving relationship that ended, it was a dying one. I do still find it funny though

saw a reel on instagram today: when adhd me makes the plans but autism me has to go *person sliding slowly towards the door on their back*

so true! i've always thought of it as, past me makes the plans for future me, with the assumption that future me is a totally different person and not me at all. past me hopes that future me is the type of person who will be hyped about the plans. future me is, in fact, rarely hyped about the plans.

Jet lag SUCKS, DUDE.

Last time I got back and didn’t let myself go to sleep until 10, I slept for 13 hours. So I let myself go to sleep today at 7:30 bc I was feeling exhausted and fighting to stay awake for hours anyway.. and woke up an hour and a half later fully rested.

I’m also bummed that I have to go back to work tomorrow. And that I’m still alone here except for one friend who lives an hour away and I don’t get to see or talk to nearly as much as I’d like to. So, yeah. Not feeling.. great about being “home”.

I miss gerard‘s concert fits of 2022 so much. That was the last time I was excited to wake up and check Tumblr News(tm) every day. They went so much harder than necessary and it was awesome.

Am I still disappointed they had a boring-ass outfit for my show? Sure. But that’s beside the point

Things are in shambles right now, my dudes:

So far my predictions about the order in which my grandparents will die, are correct. And the grandparent who is doing the best is my favorite grandparent (she’s just mourning the death of her husband, but otherwise aka healthwise she’s fine) so that’s good, I guess. Bitch better live to be a healthy 100

Maybe it’s the incoming spring weather and longer days, maybe it’s the vaguely improved mental health thanks to my regular jogs, but I’m feeling more settled into my new city than ever. I don’t miss Lübeck so much anymore, either. I also have more hope than ever that I’ll be able to switch to a better job in a month. Things are really looking up!

Bro, waking up from a dream where you feel loved and cared for in the way you can best feel and understand it when you don’t get that irl is the WORST. Waking up to a different reality really makes it hard to get out of bed and get on with your day -_-

I didn’t get to go on my jog today bc it rained all day and I’m feeling the negative effects of it all around. I’m not ready to fall asleep yet even though it’s bedtime and I physically don’t feel as good as I have been. Just to name a couple

i very rarely fall in love with entire casts of a show, but damn. derry girls makes it so easy

Y’all. I’m gonna be real. I feel so good since I’ve actually managed to go on almost daily jogs. Don’t let me slack on this. My mental health truly is so much better. I’m more productive afterwards. My sleep is improving. This is amazing

there's a carneval tradition i forgot entirely about where women who wear ties during carneval run the risk of getting the tie snipped in half. well i wore a tie to work yesterday with my costume and my boss reminded me of the tradition. it caught me off guard for a second because of the specific word he used, which apparently best translates to "broad". it's slang for "woman" and to me it just feels sexist, i don't love the vibes of the word. so to hear my boss insinuating that that's me really threw me for a loop and i really sat there visibly trying to process what he said. i had to ask him to repeat himself and i was just as befuddled the second time and honestly i was speechless

i thought i was sad but then i put on the hourly animal crossing new leaf music and life is beautiful again actually

Things love to happen between 10pm-6am my time!!! Every single family emergency gets relayed to me during that time…. Or when I’m at work. I don’t want to go to bed NOR start my day with these infos 😭

My video summary of 2022 is hurting my feelings 😭😭😭 that year was so good. Mostly because of how much I traveled and how many concerts I went to. Last year wasn’t as eventful because I was occupied with moving. But I think 2022 didn’t pick up until spring cause I don’t do much with my life in winter these days, so come spring I gotta make sure I DO. SHIT. WITH. MY. LIFE. !!!