for all of uuultrac's flaws though...that soft music whenever the pairs are having a moment is a really good piece. the music repeats a lot so it really felt like the game was cycling through a limited library but that soft bit...ah. good

i wrote a whole rant for hashihime so i deserve to do another one for uuultra c since i keep subjecting myself to the messy writing of adelta

frankly there are too many units in enstars for me to fully spread my attention out...esp since i have no intention of abandoning twst and i have kind of put it down to consume enstar lore

anyway i know nazuna left valkyrie as selfcare but...(head in hands) idk the concept of post-war/current characterization nazu and mika fucking around while also being emotional support boys when shu decides to return to humanity after doing Art..

fully consuming enstars lore now that i'm getting into the localized game and i hate to say my ships are....keeping on brand

it's funny bc a few years ago i was just hit with how i was content but not...satisfied? there's nuance there i'm struggling to verbalize. like things are ok but you still feel like something's missing

which is funny because now i look back and was like that was such a fascinating time, fresh out of school and truly just learning how to navigate the world. i remember that time fondly for mentally being meh about it

a few days ago it hit me that i'm reaching an age milestone and like got a few seconds of just utter fear of...not having anything to show for it? but also only just purely socially and interpersonally? which is silly but i wonder if i'm just starving for connection rn

it's late and i took an unplanned nap at midnight so i'm still up and can feel myself slipping back into mourning what could have been if the pandemic never happened. we will obv never know but i just feel like if life progressed as normal i would be in a different place