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Brandon the Chihuahua

@canisbaileyilupus / canisbaileyilupus.tumblr.com

The name is Brandon | Trans | In An Open Relationship | Pansexual | He/His/Him Pronouns | Fandoms: DMMd, SPN, ML, Osomatsu-san, DDADDS | Intersectional Feminist | Dog Therian | Indiana | CGLRE Little
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2023 was a fucking weird year. got to see my love and i got engaged. i got a girlfriend as well. i got to play fnaf and stream again. i reached 100 followers on twitch too. but there were things i wasn't happy with. first, i had a really long hiatus because my moms friend wanted to waste our time and not help us find a place to live with them. they are unreliable, and i don't want to deal with that again. my fucking cycle started up again and its getting worse when it comes to my meds. sure, i got a new job, but i'm not able to get enough water now and no one understands why this is a problem. i hope 2024 yield better results.

my resolutions for 2024:

-spend more time with my fiance and girlfriend -stream more often -save money so i can start planning my move to be with my fiance -its not realistic, but i'm gonna try to push for partner status on twitch -have lots of fun

if i can reach at least 2 of these, it'll be a good year.

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i can't wait for the day that i wake up in bed with you. to feel the warmth of your body against mine as the sun shines through your curtains.

i will get up to make your coffee just the way you like it and i will be making our breakfast in the kitchen in whatever clothing i manage to gather up to put on

i will sit at the table with you looking at memes and laughing in-between bites planning the day before our mugs are empty

i will take a shower with you scrub your back for you and you scrub mine as well letting the water hit our naked bodies to cleanse us

i will dress up in whatever clothing you desire to see me in always considering the weather of course and our plans for the day will help us decide my outfit as well

i can't wait for the day that i get to marry you to speak our vows and promise to always be by your side no matter what life has to throw at us

i can't wait to spend my entire life at your side but that is still a long time from now and it makes my heart ache knowing i will awaken tomorrow without you next to me.

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I miss the old days.

I miss the old days. When I would stay up way too late Destiel videos playing on my laptop And I'd be planning out my next day off to film YT videos.

I miss the old days. When my paychecks got saved for cosplay And my plans for my winter convention were underway.

I miss the old days. When I'd spend my nights watching Supernatural on the TV And cry when a character died and stayed dead.

I miss the old days. When my time was spent on this site looking for art Or reading fanfics of my favorite ships And I'd spend so much time doing it that I'd forget to sleep.

I miss the old days. When I'd buy alcohol and get drunk in my hotel room Before heading down to the rave at the convention And hitting on my friends in their cosplay.

I miss the old days. When my every waking thought was about a new season Or the lastest episode of Supernatural And I'd dive headfirst into discourse on Tumblr.

I miss the old days. When I got into my Castiel cosplay and just Existed for a moment. I was allowed to be myself for just that moment.

I miss the old days. When I'd get to exist and escape to my safe place. Where angels and demons fought And our boys loved and lost And we wept.

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secrettumblrgirl, wherever you are, i have never forgotten about you. every summer i remember the conversation we had about your mental health and how awful you felt about yourself. when you decided to leave the site, i was sad that i couldn’t talk to you anymore but if you were going to get help for your mental health i wished you the best. i hope that we can get in touch again and we can talk about how your life has been. i miss talking to you.

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I've had a lot going on, time to recap. Can't seem to do a read more on mobile for some reason.

My mom's friend is mentally ill and has been floating around with meds for a couple years and hasn't been consistent in taking them properly. She's also a recovering alcoholic and relapses often.

My mom has been friends with her for 30 years and I am forced to live with my mom bc I can't live alone (rent is awful). Now, mom decides on her own to let her live with us. I disagree but she never asked me. So, in August (I think?) She moves in. She's been told it's not permanent and she'd have to get back on her feet since she was escaping an abusive relationship. Not my problem, I didn't have a choice. So, she's been told the rules, no smoking inside, clean up after yourself, no drugs or alcohol, take her meds on time, etc. This also included buying her own food and paying rent. Mom then goes back on that, saying she can buy her own food but also share ours. That wasn't in the agreement, but I can't fight her on it. Now, food and bills go up. It's costing me more to feed this 55 year old spoiled brat than to put gas in the car.

Since being diagnosed with autism, she's ignored my "I can't handle loud voices and sounds" and the rules of "be quiet or people will report us." She uses her vape pen inside (yes that's included in the smoking rule) and she's relapsed twice since being here (alcohol). She waits until the last minute to make phone calls to therapists, doctors, and housing office to find a place to live. When she doesn't get the therapy she wants she throws a fit.

Now, it's months later, and we got our very first lease violation. The apartment complex office is aware we have someone living here that's not on the lease. And she's been warned on her voice (blames BPD) so much it's annoying and that's also a lease violation.

I am in fear of being evicted. This is our only warning. The next time they send our a lease violation email, they will file eviction papers and we will end up with 30 days to leave.

This is what I've been dealing with for months. I'm so fucking tired.

And there's a lot of small things that bother me too, really gross stuff. She shits and pees herself and refuses to wear diapers. She has done so much laundry it's scary. If we paid for water, we would be unable to live here. She uses a full roll of toilet paper a day to wipe her ass and absolutely explodes the toilet. She leaves her hair everywhere. She never put her shit away either, everything is everywhere. Every room she goes in it's like a tornado. She also doesn't clean her dishes, leaves coffee grounds everywhere and doesn't understand that the water bottles are for my mom and I bc we can't drink the tap water. She's also said I'm rude bc I don't want to have a conversation. I'm not someone who talks a lot, everyone knows this about me. If I wanna talk, I'll talk. If not, I don't participate in conversation.

Let's put this last bit out here for you guys. She is spoiled. She has gotten everything she's ever wanted to a point where if she wanted money, all she has to do is cry to the right people, annoy her mother long enough, abuse her power over a partner to a point they give her money. Even now, she's 55 and her mom is dealing with her father who has dementia. She still calls her crying and to shut her up her mom throws money at her. She's had a maid pretty much her whole life and has never had to struggle financially. Now that she is poor, she doesn't want to give up her spending habits and everytime she has a little money she'll buy shit she doesn't need, including furniture she can't put anywhere for an apartment she doesn't have.

I'll be adding photos when I get a moment as well. Some photos will include a toilet bowl but only if people wanna see it.

She has now been put in a shelter. Mom forced her hand and finally has been pushed out of the apartment. Our next step is to pack her shit. It's been a couple days, she should have packed quicker. Instead, she was having a pity party and finally packed her bag last night. Didn't finish until this morning when she was supposed to leave.

More photos from the packing fiasco.

Now, all we have to do is find her keys which she's lost somewhere in the mess she's left and put her things away in her storage unit. I wonder if her meltdowns will get her institutionalized? Let's just wait and see, then.

Update #2

I have not found her keys yet, but one room is clean. It's a miracle that I managed it in 2 hours. I have found so many art supplies she hasn't used, vape cartridges she refused to throw out, and some kind of drug called Delta 8 (it stinks). Also, the amount of pennies she kept was odd. But this is the end result of cleaning my mother's room and removing her friends things.

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Every once in awhile, I'll think about secrettumblrgirl and hope she's doing okay. I wonder if she remembers me at all. I hope she knows I haven't forgotten about her. It's been almost 9 years since she deleted her blog, but I hope she comes back and tells me how she's been. I miss her.

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Fanfiction Authors: HEADS UP

(Non-authors, please RB to signal boost to your author friends!)

An astute reader informed me this morning that one of my fics (Children of the Future Age) had been pirated and was being sold as a novel on Amazon:

(And they weren't even creative with their cover design. If you're going to pirate something that I spent a full year of my life writing, at least give me a pretty screenshot to brag about later. Seriously.)

I promptly filed a DMCA complaint to have it removed, but I checked out the company that put it up -- Plush Books -- and it looks like A LOT of their books are pirated fic. They are by no means the only ones doing this, either -- the fact that """publishers""" can download stories from AO3 in ebook format and then reupload them to Amazon in just a few clicks makes fic piracy a common problem. There are a whole host of reasons why letting this continue is bad -- including actual legal risk to fanfiction archives -- but basically:

IF YOU ARE A FANFIC AUTHOR WITH LONG AND/OR POPULAR WORKS, PLEASE CHECK AMAZON TO SEE IF YOUR STORIES HAVE BEEN PIRATED.

You can search for your fics by title, or by text from the description (which is often just copied wholesale from AO3 as well). If you find that someone has stolen your work and is selling it as their own, you can lodge a DMCA complaint (Amazon.com/USA site; other countries have different systems). If you haven't done this before, it's easy! Here's a tutorial:

HOW TO FILE A COPYRIGHT COMPLAINT FOR STOLEN WORK ON AMAZON.COM:

First, go to this form. You'll need to be signed into your Amazon account.

  • Select the radio buttons/dropdown options (shown below) to indicate that you are the legal Rights Owner, you have a copyright concern, and it is about a pirated product.
  • Enter the name of your story in the Name of Brand field.
  • In the Link to the Copyrighted Work box, enter a link to the story on AO3 or whatever site your work is posted on.
  • In the Additional Information box, explain that you are the author of the work and it is being sold without your permission. That's all you really need. If you want, you can include additional information that might be helpful in establishing the validity of your claim, but you don't have to go into great detail. You can simply write something like this:
I am the author of this work, which is being sold by [publisher] without my permission. I originally published this story in [date/year] on [name of site], and have provided a link to the original above. On request, I can provide documentation proving that I am the owner of the account that originally posted this story.
  • In the ASIN/ISBN-10 field, copy and paste the ID number from the pirated copy's URL. You'll find this ten-digit number in the Amazon URL after the word "product," as in the screenshot below. (If the URL extends beyond this number, you can ignore everything from the question mark on.) Once this number has been added, Amazon will pull the product information automatically and add it to the complaint form, so you can check the listing title and make sure it's correct.
  • Finally, add your contact information to the relevant fields, check the "I have read and accept the statements" box, and then click Submit. You should receive an email confirmation that Amazon has received the form.

Please share this information with your writer friends, keep an eye out for/report pirated works, and help us keep fanfiction free and legally protected!

NOTE: All of the above also applies to Amazon products featuring stolen artwork, etc., so fan artists should check too!

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