Once again I'm here.
Here struggling to hold back the tears. Here using every bit of energy to not harm myself in some way. Here hiding the fact that I’m worse than people think. Here wanting to sleep forever. Here feeling like a bomb waiting to expose. Here reaching crisis point. Here at the bottom.
Once again, I find myself asking the same questions.. Will it ever end? Will I ever be truly better? And the biggest of all: What if..?
What if I die? What if things change? What if..? What if..? What if..?