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An evil chocolate maker who lives in the walls

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If every swalt costume had all six variations!

This is what I've been working towards this past week: Filling in all the gaps in the alt costume system! This was a lot of fun and not as hard as I thought it'd be. Now that I have designs for all 30 permutations, I can focus on my next edit series: giving swalt costumes to the productions that don't use them!

My specific contributions are Blue Aragon, Orange Aragon, Orange Boleyn, Orange Seymour, Orange Howard, Pink Boleyn, Pink Seymour, Pink Cleves, Pink Howard, Pink Parr, Silver Aragon, and Silver Seymour

The preexisting variations are Black Aragon, Black Boleyn, Black Seymour, Black Cleves, Black Howard, Black Parr, Blue Boleyn, Blue Seymour, Blue Cleves, Blue Howard, Blue Parr, Orange Cleves, Orange Parr, Pink Aragon, Silver Boleyn, Silver Cleves, and Silver Parr

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Do you have the RAM au cataloged somewhere? I keep trying to find the beginning and getting kind of lost but I really want to read all of it

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Thank you for your interest! I've made a side-blog! @randomly--accessed--memories

It's currently been erroneously flagged as explicit (which happened literally moments after I made it, like what the hell), but once that gets cleared up, I'll be able to organize and customize it as I please. I've already moved all the posts onto there, so now it's just a matter of aesthetic stuff. We (me and a bunch of other contributors) have been having a lot of fun over there. It's basically a collaborative fiction project at this point.

I can't currently give you a link to the start on there because of the incorrect flag, but I can give you the first page of the tag on my main blog. Start from here, then read forward! Over on the sideblog, I've also started tagging specific dynamics, so if you only want to read about Vox's relationship with the Vees/Alastor/the hotel crew, you have that option.

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In case you're wondering where I've been this past week

Here. I've been here. I have never hyperfixated this hard on something before.

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Vaguely wondering if I should get tested for a seizure disorder. Ever since I was sixteen, I’ve had these intermittent, couple-month-long spells of having sudden, inexplicable, painless twitches in my chest. For a while I was terrified it was a heart issue, but I’ve mostly overcome that fear since no one’s ever found anything unusual in my blood work. I have anxiety obviously, and that could very well be the cause, but it’s such a physical reaction (and usually happens without any prompting) that I sometimes struggle to write it off as purely psychosomatic. I heard the other day that you can have a seizure disorder without even knowing it, so maybe? Idk. Would really like to get tested, but my family lost our insurance last month and we’re now on Obamacare, so I don’t think I could justify it to my dad. He’s always been very firm that it’s all in my head and he’s probably right, but I still would like to know.

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something that's interesting about vox & alastor's lyrics in stayed gone is the way they approach slandering the other person. vox makes a ton of aggressive, declarative statements that push his opinion as objective fact ("the demon is a coward / you can take that as gospel"), which is in line with his hypnotic ability and his general attitude that he's ultimately in charge of what people believe and how that information is delivered.

on the other hand, alastor is far more suggestive; he poses questions, lets vox blow himself up without really doing anything, divulges personal knowledge that sways the tide of public opinion ("is vox insecure, pursuing allure? ... / is vox as strong as he purports, or is it based on his support?"). he's the weeds sprouting through the concrete of vox's empire. vox overcompensates because he has to ensure every single one of his viewers sees the world through his lens, otherwise the narrative falls apart—but all alastor has to do is get people to doubt.

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Each cast member's relationship with Vox in RAM

Alastor – Alastor decided to break Vox on a whim. Seven years ago, during one of their fights, he managed to subdue Vox, which he'd never fully managed to do before– usually, they would fight to a stalemate or one of them would decide to make their escape before things could get really serious. With Vox at his mercy, Alastor found himself recalling a certain experiment he performed several decades ago on the former overlord of the fashion industry. Alastor wanted to claim victory over Vox, make him suffer for his decades of insolence, and, most importantly, wind back the clock. Vox used to be his starry-eyed little protege, hanging on his every word and doing exactly as he told him. He missed that version of Vox (or rather, what that version did for him and his ego) and hated the crass, obnoxious megalomaniac he'd become. If that experiment had transformed Niffty into such a loyal, amusing thrall... why not try the same with Vox? Alastor took Vox into the basement of Vee Tower and did things to him that no one will ever know, broadcasting his screams to all of Pentagram City. Once he was satisfied with his work, he dumped Vox's mangled body in the lobby and utterly vanished from the Pride Ring for seven years. He hoped that, whenever he returned, he'd find a Vox far more amenable to his tastes. And he got his wish. Or at least, he thought he did.

Alastor finds Vox's state quite amusing, and he derives a great deal of satisfaction from having such complete control over him, but... he still misses the old Vox, in a way. Alastor enjoyed the challenge Vox used to pose. He enjoyed being able to banter with him. He enjoyed how, for 60 years, he and Vox perpetually feuded, but never truly defeated each other. This new version of Vox offers none of that. He's almost cloyingly docile with Alastor and absent-minded to the point of incompetence. There's only so long the novelty of watching his greatest rival reduced to a pathetic, feeble-minded wretch can last. Still, Alastor is unwilling to let Vox go. He's his toy now, and there might still be some fun to be had by dangling him over the Vees' heads until this nonsense with the hotel is finished. Read more here.

Angel Dust – Angel's feelings about Vox are deeply complicated. He was one of the few non-overlords who knew that Vox was still alive but had lost his mind, due to his proximity to Val. Vox's condition was a constant source of rage, grief, and frustration for Valentino, and more often than not, he chose to take those feelings out on Angel. He wishes so badly that he could just ignore Vox or laugh at his suffering, but he can't. Seeing it up close every day isn't cathartic, it's just sad, and he hates that it makes him pity the man who happily enabled his abuser for decades on end. He'll never forgive Vox or become his friend, but, after several months at the hotel, he at least decides that he can be a better man than Vox ever was and not be needlessly cruel to him. Read more here.

Charlie – Vox grows to really like Charlie (just like everyone else tbh). She's just so endlessly patient and kind. She always treats Vox with respect and understanding, which makes him very eager to please her. If she sets him a task, whether it's related to hotel maintenance or the redemption activities, he'll try his best to do it right and if he fucks up, he'll attempt to make it up to her somehow, even if his methods are kind of... extreme (Accidentally fried the hotel TV? Time to go steal a new one!). They're not super close friends, but there's a lot of affection between there.

Cherri Bomb – Cherri is unsympathetic to Vox when she finally meets him. She's not willing to forgive him for what he helped put Angel through and tries to get Angel to laugh with her about how he got what he deserved. As much as he'd like to, Angel can't bring himself to laugh along. She'd probably be the hotel resident most willing to mock and prank him once she moves in, but we'll see what happens in season two.

Husk – Husk does his absolute best to never exchange words with Vox unless there is literally no other option. Vox scares the shit out of him. It'd be one thing if Niffty was just some one-off– maybe something went wrong with her during Alastor's usually overlord-murder routine and he just decided to roll with it– but seeing explicit confirmation that, no, this is something Alastor can and will do to people just for shits and giggles is terrifying. Husk has no love in his heart for Vox as a person, but watching Alastor puppet him around and rob him of his dignity makes Husk fear and hate Al all the more. If Husk steps "too far" out of line, what to stop Alastor from doing the same thing to him, someone who's actually under contract with him and no longer has the power that Vox and Niffty had when they were broken?

Lucifer – Vox has an ongoing delusion that Lucifer is one of his old bosses from his human life. He's constantly sucking up to him, trying to earn his approval so he'll finally give him that promotion he'd been after. Lucifer finds this situation fun and plays along. He's not malicious about it– he genuinely enjoys putting on a show and doesn't think it's doing Vox any harm. May or may not care about who Vox used to be; if he does care, it's only in the context that Alastor is capable of doing this to his fellow sinners and that's all the more reason not to let him continue to manipulate Charlie.

Niffty – Vox and Niffty instantly click. They're from the same time period and are both in a similar mental state, so they get each other on a level no one else in the hotel is capable of. Alastor specifically fucked with Vox's mind to make him more amenable to retro culture, so Niffty's 1950s sensibilities immediately make him feel at home with her. She's also the only one in the hotel who isn't even remotely bothered by his behavioral/cognitive issues. Vox forgets what he's talking about halfway through a conversation and tries to leave to do something else? Niffty will come along happily, regardless of what they were talking about. Vox fries electronics or shocks her by accident? Yay, pain! And now there's a mess for her to clean up! They just adore each other. Neither of them is cognizant enough to realize that they're both ex-overlords in the exact same position– they just "naturally" get along completely separate from that. They're one hell of a double act, causing problems without realizing it and occasionally calming down enough to have sweet, quiet moments together. Out of everyone in the hotel, Vox will miss Niffty the most once he finally goes back to Vee Tower.

Sir Pentious – Pentious is sent by the Vees to infiltrate the hotel and report back how Vox is doing, as well as if there are any vulnerabilities that they can exploit in the hotel that will help them rescue him. He isn't caught quite as quickly as he is in the main verse. Pentious used to look up to Vox as one of the most powerful overlords in Hell and is caught off-guard by the state he's now in. Even as Pentious is playing double agent, he finds himself becoming very attached to the hotel and its residents, including Vox himself. Vox is supposed to be the hotel handyman, but he ends up breaking things more often than he fixes them due to his short attention span. Pentious finds himself helping Vox with his job more and more often; he has a lot of experience with wrangling not-all-there people (or eggs in his case) into successfully completing complex tasks. Vox ends up liking Pentious a lot; they talk about mechanical stuff and Vox finds Pentious' big personality funny and interesting and attention-grabbing. They strike up a pretty sweet little friendship, which gives Pentious a little bit of an ego boost that an ex-overlord likes him enough to consistently want to spend time with him. And at no point does Vox ever feel compelled to scream at Pentious to kill himself. Read more here.

Vaggie – Vaggie mostly kept her distance from Vox for the first six months at the hotel, like she did with most of the other residents. She doesn't trust easily, so it takes a while for her to open herself up to people. She sort of mentally filed Vox under the same category as Niffty: Erratic weirdos who Alastor brought to the hotel for God knows what reason, but who don't seem to be malicious. She struggled a lot with being patient with him and dealing with his destructive fits though. Her first instinct is to attack when threatened, so Charlie often had to get between her and Vox whenever he started losing control. Eventually, Vaggie starts picking up on the fact that something is off about Vox and Alastor's "friendship." Once she learns what happened to Vox, she finds herself empathizing with him quite a bit; she knows what it's like to be blindsided and left to rebuild your life from scratch, as well as what it's like to be a former monster hiding in plain sight.

Valentino – Valentino has not been doing well these past seven years. He was never known as an overlord with an abundance of self-control, but any he may have once had has gone completely out the window since Vox was driven insane by Alastor. He simply does not know how to deal with his emotions, so instead he takes them out on everyone around him, as well as himself. His reputation for needless, ultra-violent cruelty towards his workers has doubled every year since Vox was broken. He constantly starts totally unnecessary fights with other overlords and wannabe overlords, just to give himself an outlet for his anger. He's abusing his body in a manner he hasn't done since he was alive and is doing so with increasing frequency. He's become a rabid dog that everyone in Hell knows needs to be put down, but no one can manage it because he and Velvette have become so powerful in Vox's absence.

But for some reason even he can't understand, Val leaves most of that anger at the door when he goes into Vox's quarters to make sure he isn't driving his claws through his screen, or curled up in the corner of the room, screaming at memories from decades ago, or simply catatonic, unwilling, or unable to move or speak. He becomes something that he never– not in a million, billion years– would've ever thought himself even remotely capable of being: a caretaker. A shitty one, probably, but a caretaker, nonetheless. He'll do his best to calm Vox down during his bad spells, amazingly managing not to retaliate when Vox lashes out at him. He'll try to provide what little comfort he can when it seems as though Vox is about to shatter into a million pieces. He somehow finds it within himself to be patient when Vox can't recognize him and asks the same questions over and over and over again. And never, not even once, has he been seriously tempted to take advantage of Vox's vulnerable state. Why?! Preying on vulnerable people is his whole identity! Val cannot understand why, if he can't bring himself to take advantage of this weak, pathetic version of Vox, he doesn't just go back to his room, retrieve his angelic bullets, and just put him out of his misery already. But he doesn't want to. Not truly. Vox is his. And he always will be. Read more here.

Velvette – Velvette always considered herself "the backbone of the Vees." Well, now no one can deny that fact, and she's infinitely less satisfied with her afterlife because of it. After it became clear that Vox was not going to recover, she took over his old position as CEO of VoxTek, now VTek. She always idly coveted Vox's power, in a way, but now that she has it she's utterly overwhelmed. Between running both her and Vox's businesses, caring for a Vox who doesn't even recognize her most days, and having to deal with Valentino's self-destructive spiraling, she's simply spread too thin. Vox's situation on its own is so deeply emotionally draining– it's a miracle she still has energy to run the company. She knows she can't falter though, even for a minute. Everything, from her own power to Vox's personal wellbeing, is hanging on her ability to project strength and carry on like nothing's wrong. And on top of it all, none of the other overlords or the general public give her the respect she deserves; they see her as a nepo baby who inherited the bulk of her empire from a man too arrogant to realize that sharing power is not considered a respectable strategy to most of Hell. It almost makes her as angry as Val, although she actually makes an effort to control that anger or put it towards something productive.

She never realized how much she loved Vox until after she essentially lost him. She knew she had a good bit of affection for him, but she would've never anticipated that she'd be willing to go to such lengths for him. She's not a patient person, but she finds herself becoming one with Vox. She'll play along with his delusions if that's what he needs from her that day (even that horrible, gut-wrenching reoccurring one that she is his seven-year-old human daughter). She'll make whatever accommodations to the tower that are needed to keep him safe and as happy as he's capable of being, no matter how much they cost. She'll shout Val down when he reaches his breaking point and nearly lashes out at Vox and offer whatever comfort or help he'll accept when he breaks down over having lost the only person he ever loved. The urge to be kind makes her skin crawl– she fully committed to being the most callous, audacious, self-serving version of herself years ago (with Vox's own guidance!)– and it makes her feel weak to love this deeply, but... she'll never stop. Not until all three of them are banished to the bottomless pit of Purgatory. Read more here.

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Do you have the RAM au cataloged somewhere? I keep trying to find the beginning and getting kind of lost but I really want to read all of it

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Thank you for your interest! I've made a side-blog! @randomly--accessed--memories

It's currently been erroneously flagged as explicit (which happened literally moments after I made it, like what the hell), but once that gets cleared up, I'll be able to organize and customize it as I please. I've already moved all the posts onto there, so now it's just a matter of aesthetic stuff. We (me and a bunch of other contributors) have been having a lot of fun over there. It's basically a collaborative fiction project at this point.

I can't currently give you a link to the start on there because of the incorrect flag, but I can give you the first page of the tag on my main blog. Start from here, then read forward! Over on the sideblog, I've also started tagging specific dynamics, so if you only want to read about Vox's relationship with the Vees/Alastor/the hotel crew, you have that option.

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