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dream machine

@javipuntoblu / javipuntoblu.tumblr.com

Javi. 22. Chile. Journalist.
In love.
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your 20's be like

me: nvm I'm totally nailing this adult thing
*new problem appears*
me: W H A T IN T H E F U C K
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She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but (...) Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t.
I can’t.

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No me malinterpretes, sé que no hay un mañana, lo único que pido es que si esta es mi última noche contigo abrázame como si fuéramos más que solo amigos, dame un recuerdo que pueda llevar, toma mi mano mientras hacemos lo que los amantes hacen. Me importa mucho como esto termine porque… ¿qué pasa si no puedo volver a amar?

All I ask- Adele  (via lo-que-nunca-fue)

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The first time I saw her… Everything in my head went quiet. All the tics, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared. When you have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments. Even in bed, I’m thinking: Did I lock the doors? Yes. Did I wash my hands? Yes. Did I lock the doors? Yes. Did I wash my hands? Yes. But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips.. Or the eyelash on her cheek— the eyelash on her cheek— the eyelash on her cheek. I knew I had to talk to her. I asked her out six times in thirty seconds. She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going. On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or fucking talking to her… But she loved it. She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times if it was Wednesday. She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk. When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely locked the door eighteen times. I’d always watch her mouth when she talked— when she talked— when she talked— when she talked when she talked; when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges. At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off. She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her. Some mornings I’d start kissing her goodbye but she’d just leave cause I was just making her late for work… When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking… When she said she loved me her mouth was a straight line. She told me that I was taking up too much of her time. Last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place. She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but… How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touched her? Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t. I can’t – I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her. Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin. I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars… And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on. I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel.. How she turns shower knobs like she’s opening a safe. How she blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out candles— blows out… Now, I just think about who else is kissing her. I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once — he doesn’t care if it’s perfect! I want her back so bad… I leave the door unlocked. I leave the lights on.

“OCD” by Neil Hilborn 

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javipuntoblu

The first time I saw him,

Everything in my head went quiet.

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Say you'll remember me, standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe. Red lips and rose cheeks, say you'll see me again even if it's in your wildest dreams.

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