It’s been almost two years since the love of my life and I broke up. We were in a long distance relationship and since we were in different countries without short term plan to be living in the same country, he decided to broke yo because he didn’t want to hurt me.

We lost contact because he randomly block me from WhatsApp (the only social media app that he used). Fast forward to now, one day I texted him and for my surprised I wasn’t blocked anymore and we talked..he sounded a little bit serious and I felt he was interested or maybe I was annoying. In another conversation he was like he used to be and we were flirting until I finally saw his profile pic (my guess it’s that he saved my number again and since I was a contact I could see his pic). In the pic he was with a woman, I asked him about her and that was his gf. We were flirting before I saw that! He used the excused that I was his kryptonite.

I was so happy yesterday morning because I felt butterflies or the weird and happy sensation you get when you’re talking to someone you really like...but then I felt from that cloud. We talked for a little bit longer and today I texted and he left me on read and I can’t see his picture anymore. I think he blocked me again. It’s sad to think that he changed or maybe he didn’t changed and he was always like that, that’s even sadder.

I feel alone, all my friends are in new relationships, most of my classmates have couples and nobody has time for me. I hate when people that are in relationships always tell me “it will come”...I know it will, I just don’t know when and I’m tired of waiting. To give you some perspective into my life, I’m 23 and the closest thing to a relationship was the long distance relationship, we met when he was working in my country.

I have really bad luck in love. I could tell you guys my stories and you won’t believe. Just to give you an example, I went on a double date with my friend that broke up with his bf a week ago. I knew “my guy” but I didn’t know his friend. My friend like the other guy, they srarted dating, while “my guy” was engaged and married a week after the double date. He blocked me before all that and told his friend to not date my friend because he was scared of the situation backfiring. My friend fell in love with the guy and they went from 0 to 100 real quick, she was practically living with him in less than a month of knowing him and in several ocassions she chose hanging out with her guy and the asshole instead of me. Long story short, I have bad luck in love and my firends always choose their lovers, hookups or bf over me.