HELLO THERE. I’M QUITE BACK.
So. Hi. It’s been quite a while. Let me sum up my marvellous incredibly awesome and happy life for you (can you smell the sarcasm yet? of course you can)
1. I got accepted at the Royal School of Arts in my town for studying Drawing, yay.
2. Remember that guy I always used to nag about? French-speaking guy, poet and singer, first love, feelings for him will never really vanish, blablabla,...? He never wants to hear from me again, he cut me out of his life and made that clear through the meanest words I have ever heard in my life. So yeah I lost the most important person in my life, who changed me completely, whom I looked up to immensely. I was knocked out for a few days after hearing that and I still can’t believe I permanently lost him.
3. My boyfriend left for a stupid camp thingy and I am emotionally unstable, so I can’t stand him not being around and I’m freaking out completely. Basically I feel like 14 year old me again, spending my hot summers in my room freaking out with an enormous feeling of rage and suffering inside.
4. I developed a very unhealthy obsession over someone I shouldn’t obsess about, and it’s tearing me apart because I can’t seem to find out if I want to tear her heart out or build her a shrine.
5. I’m back to having absolutely no friends at all, and I feel super lonely and unhealthy and I’m so scared because I keep falling in this black hole I once got out of.
That kind of explains everything I guess. I’m really sorry for everyone I let down lately, I’m really sorry I’ve been a little shit. In short I’m really sorry for every fucking little thing. I just want to be cured. Fuck and now I’m crying again. Sorry.