super cute blog!!!

i’ve stated this before but i don’t draw the pixels i post here. i find them from various masterposts on tumblr and mash them together. i recently did a small request for a follower because it was super easy and i could do it without a tablet or anything. if i had a tablet i would be doing commission work without hesitation since i’m actually quite happy with my art skills but i don’t have one, so i’m unable to do so.

bless you thank you i’m feeling the love ; u ;

thank you, i appreciate it nonetheless. positive vibes help too, but not for the rent part. they help my mental health instead and i need that, too.

if you’re in a situation where you can’t donate please don’t feel obligated in any way!!! just a signal boost helps spread the word and it helps a lot!!!

there’s not really a lot that i’m any good at that people would pay services for. like all i’m good at is writing and doing graphic design but those areas of work are impossible to find work for, especially at prices that aren’t ridiculously low and worth less than the work i’d be putting out.

also i don’t have anything worth selling my life is pretty worthless in terms of net worth like??? i’ve been trying to do odd jobs like mowing lawns or babysitting but even those have prerequisites i don’t have.

i’m trying my best but it’s not good enough and i know that so please stop making me feel worse than i already do. i already feel awful that i have all of these barriers, i really don’t need this extra self-hatred.

okay i’m in a dire situation right now and if i don’t get out of it, this whole blog goes down. i’m doing whatever i need to do in order to survive. i love this blog and i don’t want to lose it but at this rate i might.

i have been trying to get a job FOR A YEAR. a whole year with no prospects and no calls back and scarce interviews. there are a lot of barriers in my way which are making it difficult to find a job. i want a job. i need one. but no one wants to hire me, no matter how i present at interviews or even if i go back to making myself feel really uncomfortable and dysphoric by using my birth name and female pronouns. i’ve applied everywhere and anywhere i can get to and it’s not working out for me.

i want to be able to provide this positive space because you wouldn’t believe the amount of messages i get thanking me for doing this and for making people smile. i’ve even received a message telling me that one of my works actually saved someone’s life.

because of this situation i’ve felt like i haven’t been in the right head space to promote positivity because i didn’t want it to seem faked and forced, as i’m not good at hiding my emotions no matter what i might think.

besides that, it’s also pretty harmful to be stuck with the mindset that someone needs to be productive to capitalism in order to be worth something, and that having a roof over your head and food to eat has to be bought and isn’t a human right. this blog is supposed to promote positivity, not promote valuing one life over the other. if you truly feel like me asking for help when i need it most and using any means necessary to survive (safely, i might add) is wrong then please unfollow this blog. above all, this is a positive space, and i want to continue that for as long as i possibly can.

i don’t usually do drawing requests because i don’t have a tablet so all of my pixels are edits, but this one was rather simple and i have the time so here’s two copies: one totally transparent and one with a white fill.

this blog is so cute! lots of adorable animal photos and really nice positive quotes and stuff. if you need a pick-me-up in any way, this blog is so good for that! check it out, followers!

i use photoshop cs6 for everything!