I can't believe this is it
Shock
Haven’t been here for a while. Didn’t feel like I needed my previous safe space.
But I guess that has changed now. The “boyfriend” of 4 years just told me yesterday that he isn’t in love with me anymore. When I called to tell him I was on my way back from work, he sounded weird and I naturally asked; what’s wrong? Him; nothing we just need to chat later. I immediately got that gut-wrenching feeling that something was terribly wrong. Indeed so, got home, had dinner first and then finally got him to talk. “I. Am. Not. In. Love. With. You. Anymore.” I heard him say feeling like my entire body just got gobbled up by a hole in the earth.
I am not angry. I am not furious. I just did not see it coming. I blamed it all on his burn-out in my head. Everything I felt over the past 2 years being off; it’s just the burn-out, it will get better. But that hasn’t happpened and he is right about that.
I want to be angry so badly, but I just feel as if I am losing my buddy, like losing a limb. However this doesn’t come close to losing our cat last year. I sort of feel like I have accepted it, but somehow feel like I am in a constant state of shock. I can talk to my mom, girlfriends, even my manager at work about it in a rational way. But I can’t seem to even utter one word to him.
So here I am, in our bed, in our house, returning to my safe space. It will be okay. The sun will shine again.
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Claraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
oh hello italy
I need to pee
but eurovision...
Eurovision is in need of more alcohol, and glitter, definitely more glitter!
Iedereen een fijne pasen!
Do you like cumshots (especially facials)?
Oh hi there. Yeah no thanks.
Tumblr meet up!!!
(I look horrific but I’d been traveling all day, cut me some slack)
I finally met kimssceneinvestigation and analyticalnerdwithalightsaber and they are just as lovely in person as they are online!!!!
We had a wonderful lunch and afternoon wandering around Amsterdam. It was just fantastic.
:D
Yay! Finally after all this time :)
Had an amazing day with lovely weather (for a change here!!!)
Plank vol! #starwars
Ik heb een paar cadeautjes gehad :0 #Disneylandparis #starwars #liefstemannetjeooit
R2D2 :) #starwars #Disneylandparis
MICKEY MOUSE! #Disneylandparis
Lekker in het hotel in DISNEY! Al een super leuke dag achter de rug met mooi weer! En superverliefd op mijn lieve jarige jobje ♡ #disney #liefde
En dan nog de lekkerste cappuccino van Brabant!