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if you’re reading this, i’m putting a thought out into the world for you. a hope that whatever’s worrying you works out in your favor, that a happy moment comes your way, and that you have a heartwarming reason to smile tonight
Writing on here vs my notes app is such a strange feeling. Like it’s two different people. Like the Alexandria writing right now feels like the real one. And the one writing in notes is this wrong, broken, scared one. I know when I wake up, I’ll have to be her again. How do I wake HER up?? How do I get the her that exists tomorrow to be like the me that exists right now?? Damn, this is hard. Let me write her a letter.
Dear Alexandria from Tomorrow,
Listen, things are really okay. Stop taking everything so personally and to heart. Especially the things outside of your control. As soon as you learn to just let go everything will go back to being easy. Remember?? You didn’t have to be in control back then, not of EVERYTHING, just the things you got to CHOOSE. Sometimes not having a choice makes things easy because you don’t have to take responsibility for it. You don’t owe anyone anything. You’re doing okay, you’re doing perfectly fine. And the sun is gonna come out. I know it’s hard right now, and doesn’t make the changes easy… But the sun will come back soon, and so will you.
I love you. See you,
The Alex from Tonight
mydeeralex reblogged
mydeeralex reblogged
Ngl I’m right where I’d hope I’d be in my late twenties. I live on my own, I have two beautiful dogs, and I’m truly madly in love with someone. I’m still working on the self love, but it gets better every day. Now if I could just figure out meal prepping I’d be chillin.
I’m very much ready for it to stop feeling like this thanks
Its starting to hurt a little less. I had dreams you reached out and told me you missed me. I wish it were real, but I’ll take it in any capacity I can get.
Did today hurt you even half as much as it hurt me?
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“I respect someone who is vocal. Tell me why you are into me. Tell me why I pissed you off. Tell me how I can fix it. Tell me everything.”
— (via perfectfeelings)
I very much would like to kiss him. I don’t know if he feels that way any more.
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westerners are obsessed with the idea of happiness as if it’s a constant state of being. happiness comes in moments. you dont “achieve” happiness. you experience it along with every other emotion on the spectrum. if you spend your life chasing this constructed idea of happiness you will never even be remotely content. work on being whole and feeling everything while increasing the happy moments. stop trying to be a “happy person.” just be a person.
I do think that sometimes people equate “achieved happiness” with “not being unhappy/miserable/stressed” and not being in a constant state of emotional happiness.
people change when they are ready
love blooms when things align
One of the biggest freedoms in walking away from this relationship is finally understanding that he doesn’t have it all figured out. That his understandings of right and wrong aren’t necessarily what is right and wrong in the world. And that just because things can be logical doesn’t mean they have to be applicable.
Life is one giant grey area for us all, and it’s very exciting and freeing for me to finally understand that. Values go far beyond politics and personal goals. They are also in how you communicate, how much you’re willing to give and take, and so much more.
Acceptance is also an incredibly beautiful thing, and I’m enjoying the path to understanding it.
I’m in such an exciting part of my life and I am loving every second of it!
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sometimes life puts you in the same situation again to see if you’re still a dumbass
Turns out I usually am lol
Anxiety is so fucking awful.
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Just reminding myself that it’s not here yet but in 2 or 3 months it will be like this.
I need this