THIS IS SO REAL!

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Lmao, son this has to be accurate because bitches be doing this to me

Facts tho 💯

This video so real my nigga

Real shit

but why!!!???? why do some women do this!?

This is why we broke up.

BRUH. This is my motherfucking life in a 3-minute cartoon.

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1:04 LMFAO!!!

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One

“You are just to cute little boy"i said to my newborn baby boy. I’ve been in labor with this little guy for twenty- four hours because he wanted to take his sweet time coming out. But it was all worth it, he’s finally in my arms. Chris was standing over me staring down at him and i was doing the same.

We’re like..addicted to him, we can’t keep our eyes off him because he’s so perfect. I just can’t believe he’s here, after all the times Chris and i tried bringing a child into this world we finally did. Chris gently began to stroke his soft curls and Cyden stared back at him.

“I’m so glad he here, you took forever to get here man. You put yo’ mama through hell in here"he said jokingly and i laughed a little then kissed my sons cheek before handing him off to Chris. He sat down in the chair and started rocking him a little.

“Don’t you have work in a little while?“i asked and he shook his head. I’m surprised he’s even he here to be honest, he’s always so caught up into work we barely even spend time with each other. But i really think he’s out with other girls, he says he isn’t but i don’t trust anything he says anymore.

“I took a week off so i can be home with you and the baby"he said and i smacked my lips then pouted. “What’s wrong?“he asked looking up at me with his beautiful brown eyes.

“Just a week? You couldn’t make it at least two? I know the baby is here and all but we also haven’t had time to spend time together. Every since you started this art business, it also been interfering with our marriage"i said and he sighed then sat back.

“What do you mean by also? What else is interfering with our marriage lib? Because last time i checked, everyone was happy"he said and i looked at him like he was dumb. He knows it isn’t just his job that causes problems, its his infidelity issues.

“You cheating all the time, and kissing, making love to me whenever you feel shitty after the dirt is done. Now that Cyden is here, I’m not going to go through this shit with you anymore Chris. You fuck up again and that’s it, you’re going to have to go through with the divorce"i said and he laughed a little.

“We aren’t getting a divorce, i don’t believe in divorces. Im telling you babe, all the cheating shit is behind me. I don’t want to lose you and i don’t want ruin our family. I love you, i would never leave you for another girl, i promise"he said and i just turned over on my other side to not face him. “Come on lib don’t be like that, the last thing i want to feel is that you don’t trust what i say"he pleaded.

“That’s because i don’t Chris, you’ll do good for a couple of months then boom! I find out about another bitch. Look, i know that there’s going to be another girl soon, i can feel it. But this time its my last straw, either she goes or i do. And i mean that. Co- parenting will be the routine too"i warned and he sighed.

”Look im not going to do that anymore, can we just drop this conversation. I’m not trying to start an argument when our son just came into the world"he said but i just rolled my eyes and stayed quiet. I guess i can enjoy the ‘faithful’ Chris for now but whenever this mysterious women comes, im going to either make the bitch leave or I’m leaving him.

After a few hours of Chris and Cyden bonding, they both fell asleep but i eventually had Chris wake up to lay the baby down because i was paranoid that he would drop him. I’m extremely tired but i can’t sleep, i think its because im still so happy that my baby boy is here. In the past i was pregnant of couple of times but ended up having miscarriages because i was always sad and depressed over the issues i had with Chris.

I hate to say it but Chris is just no good when it comes to a relationship or marriage. He can’t keep his dick in his pants and i blame myself sometimes when he does cheat because I’m still with him. No matter what, i still love him but i know it will be right if i leave him. I just can’t picture myself doing it, but now that my baby is here, i know i would be doing the right thing for the sake of us.

“Alright you guys are all set to go home, bye baby Cyden we’re going to miss you"the nurse said but he was asleep of course. We left out the room and headed downstairs then out the hospital. My phone vibrated and i pulled it out seeing a text from my friend joy.

I knew she was going to text something stupid but i just can’t help but laugh. Tylan is Chris’s friend who actually introduced us to each other, i knew Tylan for a while and i use to have feelings for him until i of course met Chris and found out he never felt the same for me.

But now that I’m married to his friend, he has feelings for me and I’m not going to lie, there’s still feelings for him that i have. Especially since he’s been by my side with all the things I’ve been going through with Chris. Joy has been there too, she wants me to be with Tylan and if things don’t work out with Chris then i definitely would. They only thing that makes me hesitant about it is the fact that they’re friends.

I don’t know though, i shouldn’t even be worried about relationships. My son should be more important but i also want to be with someone who will set a good example for him and teach him how to treat women because i would hate to see another girl go through what i do.

Once we got Cyden situated in his car seat, i sat in the back with him and we took off. My phone vibrated again but this time it was a text message from Tylan which caused me to smile extra hard. “Who are you texting?“Chris asked looking at me through the rear view mirror. But i just ignored him and read Tylan’s text message.

“Babe!“chris slightly yelled and i looked at him annoyed. “Who are you texting?"he asked and i rolled my eyes. Why is he always worried about who i’m texting? Its annoying.

Im texting joy, her and Tylan are at the house"i said and he sorta laughed. "What so funny"i asked.

"Nothing"he mumbled.

I can’t wait to see them, but i know they aren’t trying to see me well Tylan is but my mom and joy aren’t. They just want to see Cyden, this little boy is going to be spoiled rotten.

We finally made it to the house and i saw joy and liberty’s mom running out the house to us. Tylan came out last and out of everyone that came out the house, he was the first person liberty went up to and hugged. That somewhat pissed me off because i know they have a past with each other but liberty would never cheat on me. So that’s why i bite my tongue when i see them talking to each other.

As soon as we got in the house, i took Cyden out his car seat then handed him over to ana. Liberty went upstairs to the room to go put her stuff up and i decided to follow behind her so i could talk to her real quick. I know i cheat a lot but i still love her to death, i would never leave her side just like she hasn’t left mine.

I know part of the reason why she still hasn’t left is because she obviously loves me so much. She always bring up the idea that we should get a divorce but I’m not and never will go through with it unless its something she truly wants. She only throws the divorce thing around whenever she’s pissed off and when i fuck around with other girls.

When we finally got into the room, i closed the door behind us and attacked her from behind but not to rough because you know..she obviously just had our son. "Are you still mad at me?"i asked and she shook her head.

"I was never mad, i just wanted to give you a heads up on if that situation happens again im leaving and you have to go with the divorce. Even if you don’t sign the papers i would still leave you"she said with a serious face and i kissed her lips.

"You really would leave daddy?"i asked and she nodded. "Mm, well you don’t have to worry about anything because you are my one and only. I know i fuck around a lot but the one thing that’s for sure is that I’ll never leave you for another girl"i said and she nodded.

"Good, now let’s go downstairs before they think we’re up here doing something"she said guiding me to the door and i chuckled. I know exactly who she’s talking about.

"They as an Tylan"i spat and she stopped then looked at me. "Look i know you and him had a past but i don’t feel comfortable with y'all texting each other and hangin’ out alone. He has feelings for you"i said.

"Chris, im with you okay. And if anybody should be worried about someone being alone with another person it should be me. I’m not the one with infidelity issues, you are. I never cheated on you but i know if i did, you would leave without any hesitation but i won’t ever do it. At least i would have a heart and break things off with you before i do anything with someone else. Now lets drop this conversation and go downstairs"she said walking out.

See, she always say drop the conversation but be the one that’s constantly bringing it up. Its obvious she isn’t over what i did, but im trying to show her i can change and i don’t want to lose her. I haven’t slept with no girls for months now, i might check out a few but that’s it. This shit is stressful, i don’t want to lose her or my son.

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Ten part two

Hours later…

“C-chris please stoop"she moaned and i shook my head. We’ve been having sex for hours and at this point, i could care less about the party. I didn’t want to go anyway, all my thirsty ass cousins are there and i would hate to murder one of them for looking at what’s mine.

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Chapter Five

“But you can’t keep us hidden forever.”

I slid into my pocket and grabbed out the crumbled fifty dollar bill that was given to me for emergencies. I reached over the torn grey leather seats and handed the bill to the man in the driver seat.  He straightened it out and peered back at me while licking his chapped, dark lips.

“You need me to wait for you, shawty?” I shook my head, and opened my door. “What about your change?”

“Keep it…You need it more than I do, go buy some Carmax.” I stuck my nose in the air and grabbed my phone off of the cushion that was beside me. I slammed his dirty ass door once I slid out of his stank ass cab.

“Alright bitch, get that stick out your ass or you won’t survive out here. That’s real talk…”  He shouted out the window. I rolled my eyes and flicked his greasy ass the bird.

Before he could even respond to what I had done I was trekking up the pathway to the entrance. I had to watch every step that I was taking since it was getting dark out. Once I made it up to the metal gates I punched in the code that I saw on a post-it note in my father’s office, and the gate’s opened allowing me to walk through.

I glanced at all of the stones that I passed, feeling quite gloomy. So many people have lost their love ones and I know that they were feeling the same pain that I feel almost every day. Just the thought of me not being able to have shopping sprees and girls day out with my mom like the other girls that I know have with their own makes me feel abnormal. I wish I could feel that motherly love just one last time.

“Daisy…Is that you?” Someone asked from behind me.

I stopped walking, and stared ahead of me nervously. I didn’t know who the hell would know me from all the way out here. I knew it wasn’t Skully because it was a female’s voice. I turned my body as soon as it dawned on me that they could easily attack me from my back being towards them. Once I saw who it was I swore my heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach. I hadn’t seen this woman in years.

“…Titi Keisha?” I squinted, trying to get a better look at her.

“Yes baby, it’s me…” She said after clearing her throat. She got closer to where I was standing.  I scrunched up my face at how much she had change since I had last seen her. She looked a hot fucking mess, and I was ashamed that I was even related to her in that moment. I could tell life had definitely taken a toll over her.

“Wow Izzy, you look just like her.” I rolled my eyes at that stupid ass nickname my mother’s family had given me. I didn’t get it, it sounded like a name you would give to a can of pop.

“I guess…” I said softly, while looking down at the freshly cut grass. I didn’t want to look at her, it hurt to know my beautiful auntie had turned into something so hideous.

“Does D know you’re out here?” I bit down on my bottom lip, and shook my head. She laughed and I looked up at her to see what was so fucking funny. “Well now we know you’re definitely Alesha’s child.” I furrowed my eyebrows at the fact that I didn’t know what the fuck she was talking about. Duh I was her child. I popped out her pussy, what the fuck.

“Enough of the small talk, where is her headstone?” I snapped. I was getting irritable from being around her. I could tell by the way she presented herself and talked that she wasn’t the same person I once knew.

She let out a loud sigh before digging her nails in the arm I saw multiple dark marks on. I shook my head and waited for her to lead the way to where my mother had ben buried. She took her sweet time and when we finally made it my aunt drop down to her knees in front of the granite stone. She closed her eyes and spoke under breath, it sounded like she was reciting a prayer. After she was finished she pushed herself off the ground and stood beside me.

“How many times have you been out here?” I found myself asking out of curiosity. It seemed like this was sort of ritual for her.  

“Almost every day…” She answered, and pulled out a lone dandelion from out of her pocket. She placed it in front of her headstone and a smile stretched on her face. “She was my best friend, I can’t believe she’s gone.” I kissed my teeth, and tried to fight the water works from falling.

“That ain’t shit, she was my fucking mother.” I spat angrily and shoved my aunt from beside me. She looked at me completely baffled.

I wouldn’t have been surprised if she tried to fight me since I knew of her past. What I had just done wasn’t appropriate nor did I mean to do it. My emotions were just all over the place that I didn’t know how to handle this moment.

I bit down on my bottom lip while my tears clouded my vision.

“I lost my mom tia. She’s fucking gone. Esta mierda duele tanto. (This shit hurts so bad.)” I cried, Keisha gripped my arm and brought me into her. As soon as she wrapped her arms around me I felt the same comfort that I once did with my mother.

“I know Daisy, but you can’t let this effect you the way it is. All your mother wanted from you was to be carefree and loving just like she was. It’s going to be hard for you to do that with you letting her death fuck with you like this. Baby, she’s gone and never coming back. You need to realize that and move on with your life.” She rubbed my back, and held me close. I had finally mourned for the death of my mother after so many years. This was definitely well overdue. “I’m going to give you this day, don’t be a stranger okay?”

I nodded and backed out of her embrace. I sniffled, and dried my wet face with the back of my hands. Aunt Keisha left a kiss on my forehead before disappearing and leaving me out here on my own. I sat down in the grass in front of my mother’s headstone and found myself smiling once I read the message that was engraved.

“The sun shined brighter because Alesha was here

And the world is a richer place because Alesha once lived.

Here lies a beloved Mother, Fiancé, Daughter, and Sister”

“I really miss you, you were with me since the day I was born. It sort of seemed like I was glued to your hip. Where ever you went, I was right there with you….well except for the times you came out here.” I sighed, trailing my finger through the grass. “Dad isn’t around like he used to be, ever since you’ve been gone. It’s like he’s scared to get close to me, and it hurts because it feels like I’m doing something wrong. He gives me things but it doesn’t compare to the love that I want from him. You know, I just wish you were still alive. At least I would have someone actually here for me, to love me for me. All the people that surround me come around for only two things, the materials and the physical. I deserve more than this. I mean someone has offered me the love that I have been dying for. I’ve been distancing my way from them though…since the person I’m talking about is a she.” I covered my eyes with my hands, and started to break down again. I hated that I couldn’t get a response from her, it kind of felt like I was talking to a brick wall.

“Damn Little D-Block, you got issues.” Someone startled me. I looked back to see Skully, some Chinese looking nigga, and a baby doll built bitch.

“What the fuck, how the fuck did ya’ll find me?” I groaned, slapping my hands on my forehead.

“Next time you fucking try to run up out of my crib unannounced don’t forget to get all of your shit.” Skully barked, throwing a balled up piece of paper at me. I opened it up and huffed at the piece of paper that had this address on it. I had found it in my father’s office a while back.  “Now get your stupid ass up, and let’s go. Got me running around these fucking streets looking for your childish ass. I don’t know who the fuck you thought you were dealing with but-“

Skully had stopped lecturing, and now had his eyes fixed on the headstone in front of me. We all looked at him confusingly. The Barbie doll stepped close to him and wrapped her arms around him, trying to get his attention.

“Baby, are you okay? Snap out of it…” She had the squeakiest voice I’ve ever heard. I didn’t expect a nigga like Skully to be dealing with a broad like her.

“…how do you know her?” Skully gazed over at me, while he pointed at my mother’s headstone. I screwed up my face and looked at her engraved name once again.

“She gave birth to me, so for you to come out here disrespecting me like this-“

“She told me she didn’t have kids…” I heard Skully whisper, stopping me from finishing what I was trying to say.

“Wait, what are you talking about? You know my mom?” Skully ignored the questioning looks from his friends, and sat beside me on the ground. He nodded his head and then looked down at his folded hands in his lap.

“Yeah, I knew her…She used to be my babysitter and she worked with my mom…they were close friends.” He let me in on some of his past but something just wasn’t adding up. From what I remembered of my mother, she had never worked a day in her life. She used to be my father’s wings in this drug business but from the sidelines. My father didn’t want my mother lifting a finger, because like always he was concerned for our safety. So, What Skully had just told me just couldn’t have been the complete truth. Maybe he knew another Alesha, because this one didn’t need to work…she was basically a queen in an empire.

“You sure this is the right woman, because she has never worked. If you really know my dad you know he would never make her do any labor.” I spoke with a chuckle, confused about this whole situation.

“No this is her, Alesha Santiago…she worked at Advanced Direct Security with my mom’s.” I swore my chest dropped to my stomach once he had said that. This shit was way too fucking fishy. I hopped up off the ground and paced around her tombstone.

“I need a fucking shovel…”

“Oh shit, this some scary movie type shit!” Ty shouted. “That bitch ain’t in this fucking casket!”

I stared down into the empty casket with my mind heavy with thoughts. The sudden feeling of deception rushed over me. It felt like everything that I once knew was all just a lie. None of the shit that I have been told and have learned to accept is adding up at this point. The trick was on every nigga that believed she was dumped in the ground. Alesha was out there either living her life or out there getting tortured by some ruthless niggas while everyone thought she was resting peaceful in this casket.

“It was her!….Fuck!” Dai cried with tears pouring out of her eyes and her hands interlocked on top of her hand. I furrowed my eyebrows and licked my lips. This broad had been trippy all night. I still didn’t even know what made her want to dig up Alesha’s grave. She must have some information that none of us niggas know about because we were all just staring at her as if she had lost her damn mind.

“Girl, spit out what you know! I’m tired of standing out her freezing off my pussy lips and shit.” CeeCee snapped, crossing her arms to her chest. She glanced up at me and I quickly looked away. I knew she would want me to wrap her little ass in my arms but I just wasn’t up for that mushy shit right now. This Alesha shit was really fucking up my head.

Dai stopped crying and sniffled before sending a nasty mug in CeeCee’s direction. She started pacing around the ditch while playing in her hair and looking down at the ground.

Ty elbowed me in my side, I sent a dirty glare his way. He nodded over towards little mama and I huffed. I trekked my way over to her.

“Baby girl, you gotta calm down.” I said softly, stopping in front of her small figure. She looked up at me and inhaled. I placed my hands on her shoulders. She looked at both of my hands and then up into my eyes. I read her easily like the cover of a book. The walls that she once strongly built were crashing down. I could tell that at that moment I was getting through to Daisy and not Dai.

“She’s the one that broke into our house Skully. She took all our stuff.”

“Wait man, you sure?” I asked, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Some things started to piece together and I looked up at the dark sky in disbelief. This woman was playing the hell out of everyone and she didn’t give a fuck about who she was hurting in the process.

“I know I was praying that I get my mom back. But this isn’t what I was talking about. This isn’t what I wanted!” Daisy stressed and closed her eyes.

Once they fluttered open one lone tear trailed down her cheek. I bit down on my bottom lip and sighed. She scrunched up her face to try to stop any other tears from falling but it didn’t work. I brought her into my arms and held her to closely to my body. She tried her best to wrap her arms around my body but couldn’t quite make it. She opted to just grab onto the back of my shirt. No words were exchanged, all that could be heard was our breathing. I shut my eyes and stuck my face into her neck.

I hadn’t felt comfort from a female like this ever before in my life. I hadn’t even felt this connected to my mother. This was my very first opportunity to share my pain with another person. I had never had the opportunity to give ease to someone and get it in return.

“Ya’ll just going to continue to be all hugged up out here or we actually gonna go see what the fuck is going on?” Ty asked jokingly while he walked up to us, this nigga could never be serious.

Daisy let go of the back of my shirt and sniffled.

“I needed that” She said lowly into my shirt. I stepped away from Daisy while rubbing my nose and looking down at the grass. I was trying my best to avoid eye contact with her. I could feel her eyes boring into me but I just couldn’t take it there with her. I decided that to break the awkward moment we were in I would make my way over to CeeCee.

Once I actually looked up from the ground I regretted even thinking about going to check up on my girl. She had the deadliest glare that could have probably killed me.

“So you just gonna forget you have a whole fucking girlfriend? That bitch has a shoulder to cry on but I do as well. Don’t ever disrespect me like that.” CeeCee complained. I rolled my eyes and rubbed the top of my head while looking away. “Don’t forget who the fuck knows all about your fucking secrets. It would be a shame if all that shit were to be spilt out into the streets.” She spat harshly and poked me roughly in the chest.

“You trying to threatening me right now, Crystal?” I snapped my focus back to her, and stepped up to the broad with my fist balled up to my side.

“Oh baby, fuck with me and it will be a promise.” She switched up, and gave a nigga a little sweet act. She stood up on her tippy-toes and kissed me on the cheek. “I will fucking burn this world down before you leave me baby. I love you.” She whispered in my ear.

Chris Brown.

Chris Brown.

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Two months later…

“I hope i never see you here again Ms. Brooks, you’re are a very smart girl and you do not belong here. You’re free to go sweety, have a nice life"the judge expressed and i flashed her a smile before being escorted to the building to get my belongings. I don’t even know how to explain how happy i am right now to be out this place, but now i don’t know what to do.

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Prologue

Thursday January 31st, 2013

An alpha, or and an alpha dog is a dominant leader of a pack. Every pack has a leader, but the alpha I know will do anything to protect his pack. Even if it includes an act of betrayal and in my case, that’s what it takes to protect what’s yours. He wasn’t only my leader, my boss or someone I worked for. He was my lover, my friend, my everything but now I’m not sure what he is or what to call him anymore. He’s definitely an enemy.

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Nine part one

Right now, I’m unfortunately with Chris’s mom shopping for this party his uncle is having tonight. Chris thought that if me and her came shopping together, maybe she’ll apologize but its literally been quiet between us this whole time. I don’t know why he keeps coming up with ways to make her talk to me when its not going to work. She made it clear that she doesn’t like me and i don’t see why i should continue trying to make her like me.

I don’t even know why i had to come shopping with her for some party I’m not going to. Chris promised he was actually going to show up with me but i just ignored him, i’m not going. His family doesn’t care about me anyway they just want to see him. I already know if i go, something is going to go wrong. And that’s a gut feeling, you should always trust your gut feeling.

While we were walking in silence, i just decided to separate from her and go grocery shopping for our house. I need to anyways since Chris eats too much and now he’s running low on snacks to eat whenever i don’t cook. Can you believe he has me doing all the cooking now? He only ‘attempted’ to cook for me once and the reason i say attempted is because he didn’t even cook. I think you know what we did instead.

I was taken out of my thoughts when i felt my phone vibrate and i took it out of my pocket seeing it was from Chris.

I rolled my eyes at his dumb question then text’d back.

While i was waiting for him to text back, i grabbed him a box a fruit rollups and fruit snacks then he finally wrote me back.

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“For free”

Twelve

Next Day…

So Chris and i just came back from the doctors office and I’m pregnant. Two weeks to be exact and I’m kind of disappointed but then happy. This is all happening way to fast for one, and at a bad timing. I don’t know how to raise a baby, and with the situation that’s going on with me and Chris, i most likely will be raising the baby myself unless i work things out with him.

I really love him and as much as i hate him right now for sleeping with my cousin, i do want us to eventually work out for us and for the baby, but his mom can’t be around. She’s officially on my shit list with Chris, but there’s a difference with him. He can actually get off, she can’t. I really hate her and i don’t even see how Chris can deal with her with his temper.

I was taken out of my thoughts when the car stopped and i looked out the window seeing us at this breakfast restaurant. I looked at Chris and he looked at me while taking off his seatbelt. “What? I know you’re hungry so lets go. We need to talk anyways.“he said and i sighed. I actually was hungry but i didn’t want him to know that, i want him to know I’m still pissed.

I got out the car anyway and he walked up to the door opening it for me and i walked in. We walked all the way to the back booth and instead of him sitting next to me like he usually does, he sat across from me. At first i was confused and sad because i really wanted him next to me, but i forgot we aren’t together and im mad at him. So he’s sitting right where he belonged.

The waitress came and handed us a menu, Chris didn’t budge to say thank you so i decided to look up at her and do so until i realized she was Seyla. My first reaction was to jump up and beat the shit out of her but we’re in public and I’m pregnant, i refuse to lose my baby over a ho. “Chris can we go some place else?“i said and he looked up at me.

“Why?“he asked and looked over at Seyla then immediately clenched his jaw and stood up. “So what the fuck is up with you telling everybody Trey and i ran a train on you? I barely fucking know you?"he said and i frowned. I wanted to asked how he knew about it but i didn’t say anything because for one, i can finally find out if its true or not and two, i forgot Bernice said everyone in the streets was talking about it.

"I know, that’s one of the reasons why i came over here because i wanted to tell you Kennedi it never happened. Well at least not with me and your boyfriend but i swear i didn’t say anything to anyone. If anything it could be Adrian"she said. I’ll admit i was happy to hear that my baby, didn’t fuck this whore but in my book she’s still full of shit and always will be.

"But you still fucked my best friends boyfriend, that doesn’t make things between us okay. Now i can forgive you and forget about the past but we will never have a tight relationship"i said and she sighed then walked away.

Chris sat down and went back to looking at his menu but i pulled it down causing him to kiss his teeth. "You said you wanted to talk so lets talk"i said and he blew out of air and sat back.

"I just wanted to do my part and apologize for telling my mom all our business and being childish. I never had feelings for my ex, and she’s not pregnant with my baby. But of course you couldn’t even pull me to the side and talk to me, you just believed everything my dumb ass mom said. Just like you believed that rumor about me and your cousin"he spat. Ugh he was right, i was a little naive in the situation only because i was mad.

"Baby i’m sorry, and you’re absolutely right. I should’ve came to you and asked but, why would your mom make up stuff like that? And it sounded somewhat true because you always say that girls name in your sleep so i jus-"i was cut off by him laughing and i sighed. That did sound stupid.

"Are you hearing yourself right now?"he asked. "This is my mom we’re talking about, you know the one that doesn’t like you? She’ll say anything to make you leave and that’s exactly what happened"he said and i stayed quiet then looked down at the menu.

The same thing that’s going on with us is the same thing that happened in my last relationship, maybe my insecurities drove him to actually cheat on me and if that is then i really should stop my insecure ways. Because nothing can hurt me more than to find out Chris cheated on me, i really really love this boy.

After eating in a complete awkward silence for an hour, we drove back to my house but instead of Chris staying like i thought he was, he just dropped me off and went back to his house. I guess its really over between us and i really don’t want it to be.

I feel like he’s not even really pissed about this petty argument, he’s really mad because of my reaction at the doctors office when they told me i was pregnant. Now i didn’t react all rudely yelling and crying saying i didn’t want the baby, i would never do that because its my fault. I allowed Chris to have sex with me without a condom the whole entire relationship, but when i found out i didn’t say anything. I just smiled, i basically didn’t have the reaction he expected and that hurt him.

Now that i think about it, i shouldn’t have done that. Even if i wasn’t excited, i still could have pretended that i was. I know how much this meant to him but i let my selfishness get the best of me. And don’t get me wrong, I’m happy and i look forward to bringing our first child into this world. I’m just scared, i never been around my mom so i don’t know a thing about raising a baby when i haven’t been raised myself. But things will work out hopefully.

Few hours later…

I was sitting on my couch flicking through TV channels and listening to the rain smack against the windows. Part of me wishes Kennedi was here but part of me doesn’t only because of all the shit that went on. I knew i shouldn’t have rushed into this relationship but at the time i didn’t care, i really wanted her and i had got her but now she’s gone. Its not even all my mom’s fault, us breaking up is partially my fault and kennedi’s.

I don’t know why she couldn’t just come talk to me, i mean i never cheated on any girl i ever loved because i wouldn’t want to lose them so why would i cheat on her? She clearly doesn’t understand how much i love her, i can’t control the dreams i have and i can’t control what i say when I’m sleep.

I admit i was wrong for talking about her whenever she didn’t want to have a baby, and i never really said anything bad but i still shouldn’t have did i what i did. I didn’t consider her feelings in the situation and my mom wasn’t the right person to talk to.

Aside from all of that, i love her and i hope i didn’t make her feel like this was all her fault. I’m not even mad that she didn’t come talk to me, the whole thing was dumb and should’ve never gone this far. I’m just upset at that fact that she really didn’t want a baby with me, you should’ve saw her face. It said it all.

I thought she would eventually give up and want a baby since i did but i guess not. Now i feel bad for giving her something she never really wanted and all i ever want to do was make her happy but i fucked up. I’m happy that I’m going to be a dad but i hate that she’s not happy about it.

If i have to raise the baby myself i will, but i don’t want her to feel like she’s stuck with me and a kid i wanted forever. That’s why i didn’t even stay at the house with her today, i just dropped her off and came back here. It was wrong for me to force myself into her house last night when she really didn’t want me there, so im not going to force her to stay in a relationship with me if she doesn’t love me.

Sometimes i wonder what the fuck is wrong with me, every time i get a girl she never wants to to stay with me. I hate that i catch feelings so fast, but i show nothing but love to them and that’s something i had trouble doing before. I honestly wish i could go back and start over with Kennedi, the best part about us meeting each other was knowing that she liked me and her not knowing i liked her.

Maybe everyone was right, I’ll be forever alone. I was taken out of my thoughts when my phone started ringing and without even checking to see who it was, i answered it. "Hello?"i mumbled and tossed the remote to the side seeing Leslie’s face one the news.

"Aye I’m in front of your moms right now, you want me to take her out still or you going to do it?"red asked and i sighed. "What’s wrong man?"he said.

"I’m good man just let her live, Seyla and Adrian too. In fact we should just lay low for a minute because they just found Leslie. We do need to be in anybody’s suspicion"i said.

"Alright but are you sure? I mean I’m right here and it’ll be quick"he said.

"I’m positive bro, just let it go. Im really not in the mood to kill anybody, i don’t have energy tonight and might not have it for a couple of weeks"i said.

"Alright then"he said and i hung up.

I turned off the TV and went upstairs to my room plopping down in the bed. Here i am alone in this damn house again, i want to call Kennedi so bad but she might not answer. In fact i shouldn’t even bother her, getting her pregnant was probably enough for her.

I almost want to take the baby and raise them myself but maybe that’ll be wrong. "Shit"i said out loud. I don’t know what to do but i don’t want her to have my kid if she really don’t want it and adoption will never be the answer.

Eleven part 3

While Bernice was on the dance floor with some guy, i was at the bar taking a little bit of shots. I wanted to get drunk but instead i have to be the responsible one that gets us home safe, i didn’t think the plan through earlier. I haven’t heard from Chris all day and that kind of makes me sad, even though I’m beyond pissed off at him, i would expect him to be calling my phone non stop you know? At least show me that this relationship means something.

I guess i just want to see him fight for me but its whatever, i really miss him though i can’t lie. The only thing that bothers me the most about the whole situation is him saying bad things about me, cheating on me and his secret baby. I never expected that from him because he doesn’t look like that type of guy, his mom bothers me too but that’s something i could get over.

Bernice was right about him, he’s an asshole and i see why they fought all the time. After i got off work, i went by his house because i was starting to feel bad so i wanted to give him a chance to explain himself but he wasn’t there. So i just took all my stuff out and left my key on the counter, I’m really going to miss him though. I love him.

I was taken out of my thoughts when i felt a tap on my shoulder, i turned around seeing Adrian who had a smile on his face. “Uh hey Ken, i just wanted to apologize to you about what i told Bernice"he said nervously and i frowned.

“What are you apologizing for? You did nothing wrong, if anything i should be saying sorry to you. I’m sorry for not giving you enough attention, even though you made up a rumor about me, you’re really sweet"i said and he nodded.

“Okay the rumor was partially a lie, i mean im sorry for adding a huge lie into it but we did almost have sex and you can’t tell me we didn’t"he said and i laughed only because it was true.

“Yeah okay but almost doesn’t count, but im glad i found out the truth before the dudes on the streets told me. You know they add extras to everything"i said and he nodded in agreement.

“Yeah they do, but honestly that dude has always been bad news. Them running a train on Seyla isn’t the first time they’ve did that, they’ve done that to girls in the past. Why? I don’t know but its not right"he said and i shook my head.

“I really wish Bernice would hurry up, my stomach is starting to hurt and i feel like throwing up again"i whined and he laughed. When we first got here, i had to run to the bathroom because i felt nauseous and there this weird smell following me that made me throw up.

“She’s coming over here right now, but as soon as she come you guys should leave asap"he said and i looked at him confused. He sounded so serious but i can tell he was because the look he had on his face.

“Why what’s wrong?“i asked and he pointed towards the entrance and in comes Chris with some red headed dude. Did he know i was going to be here? Nah i doubt it, he hasn’t even called me.

“Ken are you ready to go? I’m kind of tired now and its starting to get boring. There’s no cute guys in here, hey Adrian"she said and he smiled then looked at me.

“You have to go, in fact I’ll leave because i can’t be seen with you. Chris told me if he saw me around you he would kill me, so i gotta g- shit he’s coming over here i gotta go"he said and quickly walked away.

I looked to my left seeing him and his eyes were directly on me. I took a twenty out my wallet and placed it on the counter then grabbed Bernice. “Lets go"i said and she pulled away.

“No, no wait isn’t that Chris that’s coming over here? Oh my god it is, who is the dude with the red hair?“she said and i sighed.

“Who cares lets just go before they get over here!“i slightly yelled. But seeing how crowded it was in the place, i knew we wouldn’t be out of here on time.

“Why are you in such a rush to leave Kennedi? Just stay here and chill with me baby"chris said walking up and i rolled my eyes. "I saw you talking to Adrian, i think i should go have some words with him"he said.

"First of all leave him alone, if anything i should’ve fucked him instead of you. Why don’t you just leave, we have nothing to say to each other you know what Bernice lets go, i don’t feel good and i don’t have time to deal with his bullshit"I said and she sighed then looked at the red headed guy.

"You and I both know you don’t mean that but if I catch you talking to him again its going to be major issues. We need to talk so lets go"he said and I frowned. I really just want to slap the shit out of him right now. In fact I am. I smacked him across the face then stormed out of the club leaving Bernice behind. Hopefully that dude will bring her back but I have to go because I feel horrible.

When I got outside, I quickly got in my car and sped off because I had a feeling Chris was coming after me. I never hit Chris but it honestly felt good but I would feel even more better if it was Seyla. As soon as I got home, I ran to the bathroom and puked almost everything I ate throughout the day. I can’t wait for my doctors appointment tomorrow because this isn’t making any sense, I’m not pregnant so I don’t know what’s up with me. But wait hold on, there’s a chance i might be because those tests his mom bought were cheap as hell. Good thing i stopped by the store earlier and picked up a good, expensive ass brand. I just don’t know if i should take them…

I stood there trying to process the fact that she actually raised her little ass hand, and slapped me then had the audacity to say she should’ve fucked bummy ass Adrian? Fuck that now I’m really pissed off, I’m going to her house right now and we really going to have to talk and set shit straight before I lay hands on her. Only reason I didn’t now is because there is people around but now I’m pissed, if I can kill my own my mom then she has no idea what I can do to her. Oh yeah, I plan on killing my mom and I’m glad about it, she has to go. Not only because she caused this big ass argument between me and kennedi but because its something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. "Red, stay here and entertain this bitch until i say bring her back to the house"i said and he nodded.

I pushed passed everyone and rushed over to my car when i got outside. As soon as i got the car on, i sped all the way to her house and parked all fucked up in her driveway. I got out somewhat slamming my door and walked over to her doorstep. The door was unlocked of course because she never fucking locks the door behind her, when i came in she was in the kitchen drinking water but she stopped once she saw my face. "Chris what are you doing here leave!"she said and i locked the door then walked up to her.

"I’m not going no fucking where, i got a key so i can come whenever i want. Now you know you crossed the fucking line by putting your hands on me and talking to Adrian. You just have no god damn idea Kennedi"i said.

"You deserved that slap and you know you did. You cheated on me with my slutty ass cousin, you talked mad shit about me and you lied. Now if you came here to beat my ass then get it over with because i’m not apologizing to you"she said and i just laughed only because i love her smart ass mouth.

"I don’t hit girls, even though i was close too but I’m not going to do it. At least not to you. I just want to know when you’re coming back"i said and pulled her closer to me.

"Never, when i said we’re done i meant that. Did you not see the key i left on the counter? Did you not see that i took all my shit out your house?"she said trying to push me away and i bit my lip then looked over her shoulder seeing positive pregnancy tests on the counter. I looked back at her then unwrapped my arms from around her.

"You and i are together forever, i told you that and i meant that. You have no choice but to come back home because…"i walked over to the tests picking them up and held them up. "We can’t raise our little one in separate houses"i said and her eyes widened then she ran up to me snatching them out my hand.

When she finally saw that they were positive, she froze and i laughed then held her from behind. I told you were going to be together forever, she can’t leave me. "Congratulations baby"i said kissing her cheek and she pushed me then stormed up stairs.

I guess I’ll leave her alone for tonight so she can get some rest, i don’t want to upset her even more since she’s carrying my baby now. And MY actual kid not some other nigga’s baby. I might as well stay the night here because, since we have baby on the way she has to come back home and i have to move all her shit back. I walked over to the door and unlocked it then text’d Red to bring drunk ass Bernice back bit for him to make sure to lock the door back.

I jogged upstairs to her room and walked into her laying in bed. She looked at me then turned the other way causing me to shake my head and laugh. "You really need to lose the attitude, your negative emotions doesn’t help while you’re carry my baby"i said taking off my clothes.

"Chris leave me alone, these tests could be wrong but tomorrow I’ll know for sure and I’m praying that they will be wrong"she spat and i crawled in next to her. "No go lay downstairs"she said and i just looked at her then she rolled her eyes.

Tomorrow is going to be a good day, we’re going to check on our little one then im going to go take care of Seyla and Adrian oh and my mom. Then things will go back to normal. You didn’t think i would let her go that easy did you?

I can't breatheeeee!!!