substance. i was reading a book one night and saw this word and right there and then I realized, that's what I want. i want someone with substance.

i want to talk to them about deeper things. i don't want someone who just agrees, i want someone who challenges me and my beliefs. i don't want someone who praises me for every single thing i do—i admit, it's nice but it's too much for me.

i want someone who recognizes that i have flaws, someone who doesn't put me in a pedestal. it's feels good to be showered with compliments but i don't want to be with a person who overlook everything else just because of their feelings. because i've been there and i'm not going back.

( almost a year since i've written here. hi? )

sobrang true that love bombing really is a red flag. isipin mo, someone you've never even met in real life does and says things that imply motive and love only to find out they're not 'ready to commit' or is unsure of their feelings. well, fuck that. kung bored ka pwede wag mo na ko idamay pls lang sayang oras ko tnx,,

it's been two weeks since i started my new job and i'm just grateful that they restrict access to work apps on mobile kasi it means nobody could literally contact me after working hours and on the weekends. once i shut down my laptop, that's it. i don't need to think of my work anymore (at least for now since i'm just starting hahaha) and not that they need to contact me on the weekends tho, because our campaigns are thoroughly planned haha

and given my situation before, i really didn't think i'd get to this point. small wins!

it's been so long since i last heard his voice, and iba talaga yung feeling kasi it caught me off guard. it was my friend's birthday, so her bf collated video greeting from us and posted it on his channel. syempre nandun ako kaya pinanood ko pero nagulat lang talaga ako when he appeared on the screen. di ko rin alam na nagsend pala siya ng greeting. and honestly speaking, i kind of forgot how his voice sounded.

pero nakaka-miss din pala no? na marinig yung boses na dati araw araw mong naririnig, yung kasabay mo tumawa, yung malalim niyang boses na kinakantahan ka. hay, ang hirap talaga pag nasanay.

it's hard when you're the strong one and everyone depends on you. sa family 'man o sa work, ako laging pinupuntahan for everything. kaya siguro i never learned to reach out when i have problems because i know each one also has their own. when they have problems, they reach out to me. kaya 'yung problema nila, nagiging problema ko na rin. pero minsan kasi nakakapagod na talaga eh. pwede bang maging halaman na lang? 🍃

when is it my turn, lord pwede pa-expi naman??

been into white tops this month idk why haha also got distracted while shooting some products. hence, the hand photos lol

is it insensitive for me to say

get your shit together

so i can love you?

slow mornings 🍃

i must admit, i miss you a lot

flakes ko lang yung kamay ko kasi wala lang, parang ang cute?? la bang gusto humawak dyan? char hahahasksjksk mockup lang yung tatt sa 3rd pic pero i want talaga huhu

ya girl's resignation finally got approved! sobrang saya ko lang??? huhu hoping my next work's better & a less toxic one. di ko rin alam bakit ako nagtagal dito pero glad that i'm finally free!

sobrang i can't deal with mixed signals & uncertainty anymore. siguro dati i'm fine with it pero now that i know what i deserve, di ko na talaga pinapatagal. siguro kasi straightfoward talaga ako? pero kasi para sakin, we're wasting time. kaya know your worth, bestie. wag ka papayag na paglaruan ka lang, di mo yan deserve.

i have to remind myself that it's okay to be sad after making the right decision. sometimes, doing what's best for me won't always feel the best. oo masakit, nakakalungkot, pero what i'm feeling is valid. and in time, this too, shall pass.

grabe ako lang ba pero parang i don't feel anything anymore. it's been months already and i feel like i'm just in the middle. i'm not happy, not sad, just "meh"

is teasing a love language? hahaha grabe kapag magkausap kami lalo na sa call, tuwang tuwa siya kapag naaasar ako sa kanya hahaha pero okay lang ang cute naman ng tawa niya ih AY HAHAHA