Dear past lover,
It still fucks me up so bad.
I still believe
Redemption
Establishes sovereignty in
Every shortcoming.
Zienab Hamdan
Never allow someone
To use your body as a means
Of escape
From their lonesomeness.
You’re not a vacation
Or a five-minute smoke break.
Do not allow bits and pieces
Or even halves
Of people,
Make themselves whole using you.
They’ll take
Pieces of you with them
When they leave
And you’ll spend the rest
Of your life, wondering when they’ll
Bring them back.
Zienab Hamdan
moonlyaffairs reblogged
I️ just read a quote that said “Never be the reason someone asked God for peace” and wow. God forgive me for the times I’ve been the toxic person in someone’s life.
I always left the front doors
Of my heart
Open for you
But when the draft came in
And winter commenced
You asked me
At which point
Did my soul become so cold.
Zienab Hamdan - Frigid
And that’s the one thing
I hate most about being a poet.
I’m always putting my emotions in places
That my emotions have no business being in.
Blue, can’t just be blue anymore without the connotation of the sky, or a lovers eyes.
Roses can’t just be roses anymore, with thinking about sweet beginnings, or thorns, or a bouquet in the trash bin.
And cups of coffee aren’t just a morning thing. Their the moments you spend sipping them, in a particular coffee shop, with a particular person and particular conversations.
All the little things around me, they hurt.
They hurt.
Zienab Hamdan - A Poets Curse.
We’d burn each other to the ground
Then wonder why our love was so ashy.
Zienab Hamdan - Bad Love.
This is you
Collapsing into me.
This is you
Saying
“I’m sorry you need to carry the weight
Of my world somedays.
Astronomers say
Galaxies happened
Because vast clouds of gas and dust
Collapsed under their own gravitational pull,
Allowing stars to form.
So baby
Collapse all you want,
Don’t you know
You are my entire universe?
Zienab Hamdan - The Big Bang Theory
Anonymous asked:
do you take requests?
Sure do!
Maybe self-care is an expensive face mask or retail therapy.
Maybe it’s a bathtub of warm water and a good book. Maybe it’s a long walk or simply just breathing.
Maybe it’s finding solace in god or whatever you believe in.
Maybe it’s reorganizing your drawers, your whole room or your whole life.
The thing is, mental health is not just a black and grey concept. Everyone copes differently and the method someone chooses to heal is none of your business.
Mental health is not a competition and we need to do a better job at understanding that.
Zienab Hamdan
Everything was so
Beautiful and pure
When I stared at it
Through rose coloured glass.
But
I just wish
I stayed there.
I wish
I never met the ugly parts of you.
I wish we were still
Strangers.
Zienab Hamdan - Maybe if we didn’t destroy each other the way we did, I could still pass by you on the street and say hello.
Smoked kisses,
I always had a thing
For the good boy
With cigarettes.
Maybe it’s because
His bad habit
Was proof
That he’d do anything to get
His fix.
He’d do anything
To get me,
His favourite addiction.
Zienab Hamdan - He’d go to hell and back to keep getting his fix.
Anonymous asked:
Can you share with us on how you met your hubby?? Love hearing these stories
Mmm... okie.So from when I was in high school, we were always family friends, as I knew his sister fairly well. At his sister’s wedding, I got all dolled up (I had short hair that was slicked back and the sharpest contour) and he had noticed me at the door, which he then proceeded to ask his cousin about me. Fast forward two months, I’m sitting with his sister and she goes “it would be so cool if we were sister in laws?” And I’m like “what a wonderful idea, do you have a brother?” Thinking she was being sarcastic, she pointed at my now husband and said “yes, that one right there.” At this point, I’m like woah, he’s a cutie. Turns out, he had asked about me, and everyone was liking the idea. Fast forward a few more months, I run into him again at a family friend’s house. At this point, I’m still clueless as to what was going on. No one informed me there was already an existing interest. I saw him holding this cute little newborn and as a baby lover, I wanted to hold her. So I approached him, made simple conversation is efforts to have him hand over the baby. To say the least, he didn’t for the longest time, just to keep me talking to him lol.A week after that, he reached out to me through Facebook, we exchanged numbers and literally 2 days later, I’m in front of him, having a cup of coffee in a Starbucks. And the rest is history.
Maybe when I’m 70
Or 80
And this universe
Has aged me with
Heartache,
I’ll run into you.
And I’ll tell you the whole truth.
Zienab Hamdan - We can talk about our life stories.
Last night
I dreamt
That the moon kissed
Me for this first time
And spilled himself over me
Like a ripe peach
Dripping down my chin
After I sank my teeth into it.
Last night
I dreamt
That I fell in love
With the nighttime sky
And he swallowed me whole.
You didn’t know
Did you,
His love will seem
So precious
Until he consumes
You whole.
Zienab Hamdan - Cautions.
moonlyaffairs reblogged
One day, you’re 18 and the boy you fell for in high school breaks your heart.
One day, you’re 25 and the boy who broke your heart has been long gone and his name is just another name among the bunch of “lovers that went wrong”. Among the “Should’ve beens” and “Would’ve beens”.
So there it is. Be 18. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Give your number to a stranger on the train who sparked a conversation with you about the weather or whether your Thursday night was vacant. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Love defiantly. Forgot what heartbreaks feels like, just remember how you wrote good poetry with mascara infused tears leaving track-marks along your cheekbones. Let boys look at you, you are a girl of beauty after all. Wear a new shade of lipstick that begs the attention. Run in the morning, understand you are free. Wear your heart on your sleeve.
And by all means, be 18. One day, you’ll be 25 and miss the petty heartbreaks of being 18.
18 - Zienab Hamdan (Via moonlyaffairs)
There’s still time
To come back from
All that has destroyed you.
Redemption
Still establishes
Sovereignty
In every shortcoming.
You are not
Your sins.
Zienab Hamdan - Forgive Yourself.