2018

If I can sum you up in five words.

“Fucking

Lonely

Up

In

Here.”

This year I been nothing but blues.

It’s hitting me harder and harder every year.

I’m trapped in paradise.

I know it won’t make sense to most of you.

Every night I have dreams of what life could of been.

Really the only think keeping me afloat is yuna.

Only reason why I get up everyday.

Worst part is I don’t like to talk about it.

Maybe cause I don’t have anyone to listen.

Or just to ask “hey how you actually feeling?”

Can’t wait till she grows up to help put her dumbass of a dad together.

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Hopefully I’m not too down the rabbit hole.

Big joints

Still at it. Always with the single solvent, dewaxed and purged for at least 72 hours.

Birthdays

To me are bitter sweet.

In my whole childhood I’ve only had 2 actual birthdays.

One when I was I wanna say 4-5 years old.

From my dad. And man he had the whole block at our place.

Huge cake a 2 tier cake.

Really one of the best things to happen to me.

The second one when I was in elementary were it was the total opposite.

My mother took me and one of my friends to an arcade pizza place.

Not gonna lie it’s was painful to see all the other kids with all their friends and both parents having a wonderful time. All we had was two pizzas no cake.

Yeah..

Then every other birthday was just celebrated with a spongebob ice cream cake. And just my mom and sis. By the time I was in high school I had a collection of spongebob action figures that where always on the cake.

Every year till I meet Veronica.

Man she is a goddess.

Every birthday I’ve had with her are always the greatest.

She knew that I really didn’t care about gifts or cake.

I just wanted to be normal for one day and every birthday she makes that happen.

Now I have the chance of give that to yuna.

A normal life, complete opposite of mine.

Enough time

To many thoughts.

Flooding and breaking every damm.

Here again to dump them here,

Maybe they will listen?

Hey long time no see. -badwolf