Last night I shared a status of lament for the black community because of the loss of another black man whose life should have not have ended. One of my white FB friends said nothing about the death of #AltonSterling but said "#AllLivesMatter" as a reply to my status. Although this reply was in no way constructive or helpful, I feel I needed to address something. Do not tell me that #AllLivesMatter. If all lives truly mattered to you, you would be mourning with those who mourn. You would be standing up for injustice when it is clear as day. You would not be chanting all lives matter and then continuing to turn your face from the deaths of those lives you claim matter. #AltonSterling was murdered. It should not have happened. This was murder and it needs to be claimed as such. The silence of white people when black and brown bodies are murdered is horrifying. Please don't tell me that you care for all lives when you say nothing about them when they are being killed. #BlackLivesMatter and I won't be silent about it. It's not liberal thinking. It's not anti-police. It's saying that there is a problem in the system. It's saying that racism is alive and well. #BlackLivesMatter and if #AllLivesMatter to you, then you should not be offended by it. I'm tired of hearing this argument. Please refrain from commenting with your arguments. Just show up with to the black community with your arms wide open and say I'm with you. I hear you. I'm sorry. The violence needs to end. And you telling people they can't mourn death is not okay.

The consistent process of new life & death. The seasons that bring new life and the seasons that end in death. Constantly changing with no control of it all. Life is a beautiful dance of joy & suffering. Work by Fabian Pedroza. Albuquerque, NM

This mornings fog though.

Somber Sunday with The Liturgist Podcast.

"You're not lost. You've just never been here before." I bought a print with this on it a few weeks ago but it's not till today that it started to really hit me. So many times in my life I have told myself that I'm lost, but what if I wasn't. What if we are just experiencing something completely different than previous experiences, that the only words we know to use is that we are lost. When we say we are lost we are somewhat saying we are incomplete. Maybe there is times that we really are completely lost and I don't want to take away from that, but maybe sometimes we are just using language that makes it worse. Language is very limited and because of that it can limit understanding with ourselves and others. Maybe instead we should give ourselves a little grace and say you've never been here before but you'll get the hang of it. Because change is good. New experiences are good. Times of transition are good. Trying to understand this crazy one wild life can be difficult, but it's good. The end. ❤️ (at Angkor Wat)

I encourage all who read this to listen to the newest Liturgist podcast titled "Black & White" on Racism in America. It is so important. Carve out some time and allow this hour and 40 minutes of conversation make you uncomfortable. It brings up some very important conversations that we absolutely need to be having. The conversation is honest and some things might be hard for white people to hear, but there is so much love and grace in the dialogue. I believe that everyone can and will benefit from this podcast if they listen first. The link to the podcast will be in my profile for a few days. AFTER you have listened if you want to have a discussion please by all means let's chat. There is so much to be done in the US with Racial Justice and it starts with having conversations like this.

Love this city. #warszawa (at Warsaw, Poland)

"i want to apologize to all the women i have called pretty. before i’ve called them intelligent or brave. i am sorry i made it sound as though something as simple as what you’re born with is the most you have to be proud of when your spirit has crushed mountains from now on i will say things like, you are resilient or, you are extraordinary. not because i don’t think you’re pretty. but because you are so much more than that"-Rupi Kaur A reminder to all my women out there. You're more than that. Happy International Women's day. Thankful for the resilience of this beautiful courageous women pictured. #internationalwomensday #vscocam #uganda #rupikaur

People keep telling me I have beautiful natural red hair. Thanks peeps but this ain't natural.

Update on life.. 

Now a nanny of 10. 

Yeah, I do not know why either. 

Really trying to figure out what I want, where I want to be and who I want to be in this coming year.