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@pulsarax-inactive-201602 / pulsarax-inactive-201602.tumblr.com

This account is officially inactive as of February 2016. I will not be reactivating it.
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I’m tired of being afraid of spaces that should be safe.

This goes for Pride. This goes for school. This goes for the communities I’m in online. This goes for basically every part of my life, to some extent at least.

I’m tired of being afraid and paranoid, of reliving past trauma and abuse when I’m afraid the same shit is going to happen again. I am sick to fucking death of seeing spaces which should be safe, both for me and the people I care about, being rendered unsafe because of my abuser/stalker/ex. I don’t want this to continue, and that’s been my stance since day one. I’m tired of them bringing back the past and refusing to let it go - I’m not that interesting! I kind of suck! Why do you fixate on me, why spend so much energy on it! Go pet a cat, go write a letter to someone you care about, go teach yourself a new skill, go find something better to do than wasting both our time and energy.

To my abuser:

#longish post sorry all#this is not about the orlando shooting although that pisses me off too like#oh yeah gotta have more reasons to be scared shitless in what should be a safe space!!#anyway yeah hi if you're reading this jamie i'm willing to be a reasonable adult about this if you are#even if you're not really - i just want this to stop#it's gone on more than long enough and this is bullshit
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pulsarax-inactive-201602

this blog is still dead but I know my abuser still checks up on it from time to time so I’m leaving some nice little notes

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pulsarax-inactive-201602

gotta love seeing them post about “2015 was such an embarrassing year for me yikes” like,,,,, ex fucking scuse me

abusing another human being? emotional abuse, continued harassment, what legally counts as cyberstalking, literally stealing every aspect of my identity and then shaming me for it, literally fucking driving me to a mental breakdown and making me want to kill myself?

fuck you, you don’t get to brush that off as embarrassing. 2015 was the year where you caused deliberate and repeated harm to the victim of your abuse when they stopped putting up with you and your bullshit.

#again @you and not @ any followers unless the person in question has an alt i don't know about#and when I say drove me insane I mean literally drove me to the point of having a mental breakdown with constant panic attacks and paranoia#like I was incapable of really functioning as a human being for approx. 10 months and thats counting some of the time i was dating them#lmao when Im dealing with constant debilitating anxiety because you wont leave me alone and youre dealing with#...some form of anxiety or so you claim? because i wont take your shit or talk to you#you are very clearly the instigator here; all that I have done has been in order to get you away from me or to cope with damage youve caused#suicide tw#abuse tw#gaslighting tw#fuck your marshlighting shit it doesnt need to be intentional to be abusive#literally go fuck the bull you named yourself for#star names! totally original! not ripping off PULSARax AT ALL#FuUUuUUUCK YOu#this doesnt get the talking tag because they dnt deserve shit from me#im not gonna make it easy for them to stalk me more lmoa go eat a dick fucker#private
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There is literally one person other than me who goes through all my pages, all my posts, looks at my readmores when they’re going through my blog. Nobody else feels the need to invade my personal space that much, even people who I’m really close friends with. Re-evaluate your fucking self

#and i mean also leave me alone#this post and last post @ you#you know who you are#not a mutual and i doubt theyre following me unless they made Yet Another Fucking Alt#@you you could put that on a resume tbh. incredibly good at making shitty throwaway accounts that are blatantly you#private
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@ you (you know who you are) consider the following:

  • some people wear clothing for its function, not its style
  • some people have a P.E. class twice a week which requires clothing that’s comfortable and easy to move around in
  • some people are also on the autism spectrum and dislike wearing clothing that’s uncomfortable or restricts their range of movement
  • some people on the autism spectrum also enjoy having a lot of pockets
  • in fact, many people enjoy pockets, especially because it means you can avoid carrying a bag (which is one more thing to forget if you have memory problems, or more weight on a chronic injury)
  • some people also get uncomfortable with other choices for comfortable and non-restrictive clothing, such as yoga pants, gym shorts, or what-have-you, because they’re uncomfortable showing the skin of their legs or wearing something that’s tightly fitted

and also, consider this:

  • criticizing an autistic person’s choice to wear clothes that won’t set off their sensory issues is ableist and anti-autistic
  • criticizing a transgender person’s choice to wear clothes that won’t set off their dysphoria is transphobic
  • criticizing someone's choice to wear clothes with pockets so their memory issues don't result in them losing all their important shit is also ableist
  • shut the fuck up about what I put on my body, especially when you know the reasons why
  • criticizing someone’s style and wardrobe choices for any reason is a risky move, especially for you
#vague but not about anyone who is following me#at least i hope theyre not following me lmao i have had enough gotdamn panic attacks for the next 30 years bc of them#private
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brainstatic

There’s a documentary coming out called Can We Take A Joke about how the PC police are stifling comedians. I want to make one called Can You Make A Joke about how shitty comedians feel entitled to laughter just for saying the same boring shit your racist cousin says. 

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reincore
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inkskinned

when i was 12 i babysat this girl for a few years and she would come to me and show me her art, drag me by my wrists and point at the pieces she’d made during the week. and she’d be like “do the voice” and i’d put on a sports-announcer olympics-style voice and be like “such form! this level of coloring! why i haven’t seen such perfection in crayola in a long time. and what is this? why jeff, now this is a true risk… it seems she’s made … a monochrome pink canvas…. i haven’t seen this attempted since winter 1932… and i gotta say, jeff, it’s absolutely splendid”  and she’d fall back giggling. at the end of every night she’d check with me: “did you really like it?” and i’d say yes and talk about something i noticed and tucked her in.

she was just accepted into 3 major art schools. she wrote me a letter. inside was a picture from when she was younger. monochrome pink. 

“thank you,” it said, “to somebody who saw the best in me.”

#art#tumblr chronicles#awwww gdi ths so cute
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dandyraccoonbeast

Lessons I’ve learned from Discworld (an incomplete list):

  • The price of being the best is always having to be the best.
  • You aren’t always thanked for doing right. Do it anyway.
  • Passive doesn’t always mean weak. There are lots of ways to be strong.
  • If you dig the best ditches, they’ll give you a bigger shovel.
  • Evil starts with thinking of people as things.
  • Don’t get so caught up you forget to have fun.
  • Take care of people and they’ll take care of you.
  • Take the time to get to know people.
  • Take breaks.
  • If you act like you belong, people will believe you.
  • It matters a lot less what you believe and a lot more what you do with that belief.
  • Everyone matters, but some people matter in much bigger ways.
  • There’s lots of different ways to be intelligent.
  • Love isn’t easy, but it’s worth it.
  • You can’t run people’s lives for them.
  • Just because someone’s way isn’t your way, doesn’t make it wrong.
  • Sometimes you have to play by the rules or it doesn’t count.
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nannyoggskitchen

don’t get scared, get angry

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