You'll never guess that someone is fucking with my heart again. Ha Ha Ha...

Everyone just takes my kindness and time for granted. No one seems to actually be there for me. It really sucks cause my shoulders are soaked from all the tears spilt onto me but when I ask for a fucking tissue I might as well be asking for a handout. Fuck everybody wasting my energy.

I just want someone to tell me they care...

I guess...

All I can hope for is that he treats you like you deserve to be treated. Cause if I can't because of distance I'll still be happy knowing he makes you happy.

This feeling of loneliness is so overwhelming. I just feel like an after thought to so many people and it hurts. It hurts a lot. I keep my circle small because of this but still try to reach out to others. And every time I do, especially romantically, I just seemed to get brushed aside. Without any remorse for my feelings. It really hurts so much. It makes me wanna just pull myself away from the world when all I want to do is love and be loved. Yet every time no one wants to reciprocate a little let alone wholeheartedly. It just really fucking hurts. I've never cried so much in my life.

Lesson of 2015

The biggest change in my thought process in 2015 was of this: Don’t make promises, they are too easily broken. Whether intentionally or unintentionally. Admit to someone if they ask you to promise them something that you cannot. For we are all human, we all make mistakes. Even mistakes can break hearts or shatter trust. Tell them you will do everything in your power to reach the goal in mind but reiterate that you have your weaknesses. Honesty may sting, but broken promises cut deep.