Please take care of yourself

After many years of suffering from prolonged and severe PTSD, anxiety and depression, I had said “ENOUGH!” to myself after I made the stupidest decision of my life a month ago.

I was scammed 12 thousand dollars by a man who had claimed he was a landlord for an apartment building. He saw my ad on Kijiji. This had happened in a course of 3 weeks. He knew my situation, since we all need someone to talk to. But, I need to say something.

Be careful with what you say to a complete stranger.

I learned this the hard way. I haven't spoke to my therapist in 3 weeks and I was testifying against my father who molested me multiple times as a child in a couple of days. I worked hard to get over this traumatic experience, and received Victims Compensation for it. I remember it clearly. I was at McDonald's eating a delicious Sausage and egg McMuffin before I did my grocery shopping. I was waking up, hungry and did not take my antidepressants because the pharmacy screwed up my order.

The man called at that moment.

I was beyond excited. I was to be married to the love of my life that I met on the online game Final Fantasy 14, and needed an apartment for us to start our lives together. I was to sponsor him and have his beautiful cock-blocker corgi/Sheba Inu mix with us. But, that did not go as planned. Everything is now on the back-burner. I am going to be homeless, and so will he. The people he is living with is retiring and selling the house. His aunt wants him to pay $800 a month just to sleep on a couch. That is not family, it is extortion. So here I am, scrambling with what little I have left to rent a room for myself and my fiance.

Started a GoFundMe, and as you would expect, I received major backlash for it. I was not getting any type of support or words of encouragement. Just every single insult in the book. I contacted the bank today and they said that my report was denied, so I need to make an appeal and speak with the police AGAIN.

But, despite all of this, I will be fine. I am trying my best, I am only human. It was a major mistake, but I learned from it. So, anyone who is suffering from Mental illness, I assure you; everything will be okay. Life will throw some really heavy and hard to dodge curve balls at you. As a Cancer Survivor I have learned to embrace life, and as a Scam victim I have learned to not taking anything for granted, and to NEVER let anyone take advantage of me ever again.

So please.... all I ask is that you take care of yourself. Everything will be okay <3

If anyone wants to help with even $1, it would make a huge difference for me. My PayPal is lydea21@hotmail.com. Really thinking about starting a blog about this.

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