Me: Don’t think about it, don’t think about it
Brain: don’t think about the fact that when Cassian and Nesta make love for the first time, Nesta holds onto Cassian’s hand and interlaces their fingers taking us back to ACOWAR where Cassian slid Nesta’s hand into his own.
Don’t think about the fact that Nesta has never felt at home anywhere, but when Cassian and her joined together that night, she said that Cassian slid home.
-Don’t think about the fact that Nesta said it had always been music between their souls and music was Nesta’s escape from everything awful in the world, don’t think about the fact that she thinks Cassian is the good in the world and that his voice was her favorite melody,
-Don’t think about how no one has got through Nesta’s walls beside Cassian’s
-Don’t think about how both their tears mixed together because they both were emotionally vulnerable with each other,
-Don’t think about how Nesta said that she was Cassian’s and he was hers when they were making love because they had never truly loved anyone that deeply until each other and had never found a sense of home.
-Don’t think about how they agreed there was no one else for them except each other despite all their obstacles to be together,
-Don’t think about how their mating bond didn’t need words, a mating ceremony, or food to snap into place.
-don’t think about how Nesta and Cassian both couldn’t bear the thought of the other dying,
-Don’t think about how both their hands were trembling when they took each other’s clothes off because they had never laid themselves so bare with each other,
-Don’t think about how Cassian thought them climaxing together was important because he wanted to make their love making as special as possible.
Just don’t think about it or you’ll start crying like I am, chapter 58 is perfect.
