I'm only human
pairing: one sided immortalfox, mentions of novaHD warnings: sads, hella sads
based off of Human by Christina Perri. another fic from when I had no internet. enjoy~ (this is fiction, remember that btw)
Eddie was tired. Tired of seeing Aleks being all happy hearteyes for someone else. Especially knowing that when the two of them were around each other, nothing was really the same. Damn James for having to come in and fuck everything up. Just when things were coming up slyfox.
I can bite my tongue. I can stay awake for days if that’s what you want, Be your number one
To Seamus and Jordan, Eddie would explain the dark circles under his eyes away by saying he was up late editing. Neither man seemed to really buy it, but they left him alone about it. Which was appreciated. He didn’t want to break down and whine about it, he didn’t want to burden the others with his unneeded bullshit. He was twenty six fucking years old, yet here he was getting all emotional about a crush that wasn’t returned back to him. Fuck it.
I can force a laugh. I can dance and play the part if that’s what you ask, Give you all I am. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.
To Dan and Dex, the two who were either tired of pretending they didn’t see it or the first to actually call him out on his shit, he explained away the sad looking smiles and forced laughter with a simple “I’m not feeling too good. Don’t worry, I’m okay.” And with a grin and a hug to both, the subject would be dropped. Dex was new here, he didn’t need the office drama swirling around in his head. Dan seemed to know better, as he squinted and raised an eyebrow but nodded and pulled Dex out anyway.
I can take so much. Til I’ve had enough.
Eddie was so beyond done.
Aleks knew. He knew how much the Puerto Rican cared for him, almost borderline loved him. Yet he felt the need to flaunt how happy he was with James. And it made him miserable, more so than he was able to hide. They all slowly seemed to take notice to when Eddie was more reserved than usual and it hit everyone all at once when he stopped showing up in the hub videos. Even the fans were confused, but Eddie had filmed his video explaining that already.
Something seemed off to everyone when Eddie called them all into the stream room and sat them down. He was picking at his fingers and shuffled his feet along the carpet. Damn. He cleared his throat and caught the attention of everyone in the room instantly.
Eddie took a deep breath and sighed, running one hand through his messy hair.
"I’ve made a decision. And um. It’s not really… An easy one by any means. But it’s… something that’s been coming for a while now.” He said softly, biting his lip and looking at everyone in the room, seeming to stare a little longer at the Russian in the corner. Eddie heard Seamus mumble a “what….” From his side, clearly piecing it together.
“I’ve decided to leave The Creatures.”
Reactions weren’t good. Seamus frowned and walked over to latch onto him, muttering things like “you can’t leave, asshole” and “I’ll fucking kill him I swear”, while Jordan had a seemingly permanent pout plastered onto his face. Dan looked like he was about to cry. Dex and James looked confused.
And Aleks looked just plain heartbroken.
Which wasn’t fair. No. He wasn’t allowed to be the one upset, not after all of this. He returned the hug Seamus was putting forth and hummed softly.
“Jordan… My resignation’s on your desk. I’ll have my shit out in a week. Sea… Come help me?” He said softly, pulling the older man out of the room and to his office. It was only there that he broke down and told Seamus the real reasons he was leaving. Family needed him, financial reasons… And Aleks.