9/25
In the days leading up to your passingā¦ Iām emotional to say the least.
I worked a wedding today. Just like last time.
Busy as a bee, but in the back of my mind knowing what the next few days entail for me.ļæ¼
Heart break. Because you werenāt there for us on our day, in person. Fully, Barbara. Fully, Nanny.
Today, while working, and getting every beautiful bridesmaid and the blushing bride ready, a song came on. On a playlist, made by the officiant to my knowledge.
And that song happened to be our wedding song.
Perfect. Ed Sheeran, Feat. BeyoncƩ.
Because everyone knows how much I love her. Even you. You always knew.
And something in me, unleashed. It literally felt like someone tugged at my heart strings.ļæ¼
The song that was playing was mine and Alanās wedding song.
And I could not hold back the tears hard enough. I literally was packing up my bag to leave, with tears filling my eyes.
I didnāt dare let anyone see my tears. Not on her, the brides special day.
I kept my cool. As much as I could.
That was so hard. I didnāt want to damper the brides special day, but I also knew, in my heart, that song meant a lot to me. In many different ways.ļæ¼
While you werenāt with us that day, I know you were.
Nanny, he loves me so much. Just like you knew he would.
We love you.
I love you.
This is still so hard on me, but I know youāre always here ā„ļø