Final Announcement.

I am leaving. My blog is an archive and now permanently inactive. If you are interested in still speaking with me, send a message with your skype. I will be sitting my actively once and awhile.

I also discovered through this breakdown that honesty is key. I can't bottle up emotions. So, Anon. While I'm sure you'll never see this, I'm going to be honest to everyone. 

First off, I must congratulate them for single handedly sending me into a huge mental breakdown. Even if I wasn't involved, I could still see things and could see your behavior. Though I do thank you. I am now aware that I am in a much worse place than I thought I was, so at least now I can get help for it. 

I’m also leaving because I feel highly unsafe being in an area where I know those types of people are actively lurking, even if I try to hide from it. Through the anons I have been reminded of a manipulative person in my life who used that exact same bullshit tactic to get the smut she wanted out of me. And then I was brought back to the time when my friend told her family about how she was raped. Her uncle said some of the exact same things and some similar things that the anons have been taunting with. Thankfully, that uncle is no longer allowed near her family. But I was there for moral support, and he said some of those exact things. To a rape victim. Now, I’m aware both sides are fine with these thing but I’m going to be nice and give the benefit of the doubt:

Just be careful. Honestly. You never know if shit like that is going to trigger the hell out of someone and send them into a massive fit. Make sure you’re sure the person you’re going to send stuff to is okay with it. You were lucky this time, but you might not be so lucky the next. And don’t be so damn pushy you just look like an obnoxious shithead. And I know a thing or two about being an obnoxious shithead. Though when manipulation is thrown into the act then you become a different shade of awful. 

I was hit with too many things at once, and my mind couldn't take it. So it snapped. And while vile little demons have won at least I now know I need more help than I first thought, and at least I can start healing again.

Bad news again

I thought I would feel better today but I'm not. But I'm going to be honest why I might not come back. I feel incredibly unsafe. I want to stress this is no ones fault but the anons in question. And if you are the anon, take a step back and look at yourself and say "why am I such a worthless piece of shit?" The incest anons have been...off to me for awhile now. And the panic attack was triggered by the realization. I've seen this type of person before. She also engineered situations where she would get what smut she wanted. That's what I genuinely feel happened. I respect and accept that choices were made but right now I can't stop seeing the "it's still a situation engineered by someone who got exactly what they wanted. I know tumblr saviour exists but it doesn't stop the fact I know those manipulated shits are out there and while they've shown no signs of coming at me, I still feel extremely unsafe now that I'm aware they are exactly like my abuser. So it's better if I just remove myself from the situation. Writing this has helped a bit. I was able to be honest about how feel. But yeah as long as The manipulators are active it's better if I stay away. Sorry

thought I’d give a bit of an update 

good news: it looks like this attack ended up being slightly better than last time probably because I thought things through. I’ve very glad about this because the last one was absolutely awful and I was genuinely convinced I would end up as bad off as I was last time. Still taking a bit to relax because this one was REALLY bad. Like nearly 12 hours bad.

bad news: Active manipulators still exist and sometimes they hide behind anon. They are worthless pissants and I despise and distrust them with every fibre of my being. And I’m still aware of this but I genuinely feel that voicing my opinion is going to help me.

For the love of fuck don’t be an active manipulator if you are you’re a worthless piece of shit and I hope you never speak to another human being online or offline so you can ruin their life like the piece of shit you are. Nothing but a bunch of vicious little demons who deserve no happiness, ever.

An active manipulator is partially why my life is the mess it is now.

Don’t be a fucking active manipulator.

Note: I use the term active manipulator to distinguish from an accidental manipulator. Some people accidentally manipulate someone. I know I've done it before and I felt like shit when I realized but thankfully I apologized and everything ended up okay. It’s a dick move but as long as you acknowledge this and apologize I think it’s fine. Accidents do happen and sometimes you do things without realizing it. Active manipulators obviously are completely aware of what they are doing, manipulating or attempting to manipulate someone for their own gain. They are disgusting, and should be kept away from people.

I’ve felt like this before.

I remember it now.

I’m having some flashbacks to it and remembering it.

I might not come back here again. if this blog eventualyl gets the world archived after it, I’m gone. I’m sorry.

I've had a shit day at work so probably not on today

Because here might not be the best place

Like for a starter

okay so gloves for my Sin cosplay aren't’t really working out. This site says expedited shipping is 3-4 days to Canada therefore they would get here in time. I know they aren't as high but do you think these could pass?

sisterserpentsin replied to your post:what you dressing up asssssss? I'm not cosplaying...

I wish you were too *sobs*

darkxrcher replied to your post:what you dressing up asssssss? I'm not cosplaying...

Thank you! I need to do the gloves for both and the accessories for Daisy. PRAY 4 ME