Just to update

I’ll be getting my new lens on Friday. I have two shows I’m shooting this weekend and an elopement to shoot on Sunday. I got in touch with a music magazine. I’m going to be shooting The Maine in April, my media pass is approved. And I’ll hopefully be shooting Neck Deep/Seaway on February 20th, Dashboard Confessional on February 27th, Alvvays on March 31st, and The Wonder Years on May 28th. I’ve acquired a media pass for my boyfriend’s band’s shows on March 8th and 10th (the 10th being our one year anniversary) in Calgary, AB and Regina, SK. I’ll hopefully be touring this summer as well. I’m also very very much in love. Life is swell. Life is going good. I’m happy.

Playing around with editing is part of being a photographer. Playing around with colour schemes is part of learning. My only goals for 2018 is to travel more, get accepted to SAIT, and obtain my student visa. Mostly to travel more and see more of Canada, being as it’s my new home. . . . . #canon #canonphotography #canon60d #canoncanada #yyc #yycphotographer #calgary #calgarywinter #curiocitycalgary #albertacanada #winterphotos #rv #travel #travelphotography #newcolourscheme #immigration #becomingcanadian #goalsfor2018 (at Dover, Calgary)

You all care so much about your own bands success that you over look the potential success of someone who has tried to do everything in their power to help fuel your success.

But this is the way it’s always been and works, right? So you should never try something new, right? Especially when that something new is someone who has uprooted their life for your success.

And you care more about the good time you have on the road with them than the potential success of a colleague and friend, to the point where you would block someone from receiving the support they need from the people they’re even here because of in the first place. All of which you know is why I’m struggling and still have the audacity to say you’re sorry I’m struggling.

Fuck you guys. You were never my friends and you never cared about me. That’s super apparent now.

January 2017, I was struggling. I was dealing with a lot of unresolved health issues, mental and physical. The relationship I was in dissipated. I was in a car accident that landed me in an ambulance and emergency room alone for hours. February 2017, I had a manic break down and did a lot of things that put me in danger. I got three tattoos in one day, took an Amtrak to Portland, ME from Boston in the middle of the night in the middle of a complete blizzard, I spent the night with a stranger on Valentine’s Day. I was drinking a lot and smoking a lot. I wasn’t myself, and I made a lot of people worry about me. March 2017, things were calming down and I met Dave on tinder. Went on a date. Fell in love. My coworkers got me fired from my job after making me feel miserable and ready to leave anyway, but I finally felt like I had some steadier footing with Dave. For the rest of 2017, I traveled outside the country by myself for the first time and a few times after that both by car and plane. With Dave’s support and a little nudge I picked photo back up since putting it away for a year after six years of being passionate about it, and found my desired career path, which was the same thing I wanted originally seven years ago. I started the immigration process, being talking to a clinic for advice on which route to go. I toured schools in Calgary, and found out I could afford them with US government student loans. Here I sit, in Calgary, AB, Canada in December. Four days left of 2017, asking myself what I accomplished this year. I found true love, I traveled, I’m immigrating, I’m getting better, and I found my passion again. If you told me 2017 would be my personal best year yet in January or February, I wouldn’t have believed you. . . . . #canon #canonphotography #yyc #yycphotographer #calgary #alberta #canada #immigrants #immigrationstories #canadianimmigrant #2017 #yearinreview #accomplishments #selfportrait (at Calgary, Alberta)

I hate you so much and just the sight of you straight up makes me want to vomit. You’re a rapist and a serial abuser, emotionally and sexually.

You deserve shit and nothing makes me feel better than to see that you’re doing awful.

I’ve got no soul to sell. 🔗 ______________________________ Model: @yularalyra Rope by: @therealdougsmode . . . . #canon #canonphotography #canoncanada #canon60d #yyc #yycphotographer #calgary #curiocitycalgary #albertacanada #ropebondage #suspension #notporn #portraitphotography #portraitmode #portraitvision #portraitmood #portraiture_kings #portraits_ig #portraitsofthepeople #peopleofcanada #noiseybokeh