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Mermaid

@sex-on-flowers / sex-on-flowers.tumblr.com

I like the stars.
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I am about one negative interaction with a man away from ending up doing 30-life.

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quite honestly feeling like my existence is a waste. I don’t know how much longer I can carry these weights, but I don’t know how to put them down. It’s all I can do to barely survive and drag them around with me every day. I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

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these days

feeling more alone

and less human -

things are louder than ever

but no one notices when I fall quiet

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I feel like coming back to Tumblr but for myself only this time. Gonna start treating this page as my diary I think. 

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Very upset that I'm not having incredibly rough sex right now

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so fucking annoyed rn I’m so sick of pouring my heart into things and getting nothing in return

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Therapists aren’t people who you “pay to pretend to care about you”, therapists are people you pay to teach you how to care for yourself

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voce-morti

Me: I am violently depressed.

Therapist: Oh! Sounds like you need to do YOGA! That will help!

Me: *signs up for yoga*

Me: *is violently depressed in Downward Dog*

Me: I hate myself and only see my flaws

Therapist: ok lets refocus on things you like about yourself. This week i want you to try and journal about good things you’ve for yourself and others.

Me: *does the homework* yeah but i still hate myself but feel bad cause i shouldn’t

Therapist: feeling like you shouldn’t hate yourself is a step in the right direction. Mental health is complex and isn’t something that will ~magically~ improve. We have a lot of hard work head of us but I’ll be here to help you.

TL;DR stop perpetuating the idea that therapy is unhelpful because the results are not instantaneous.

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kcsplace

FUCKING THIS.

As a psychologist the amount of bullshit on this site, the amount of fucking dangerous bullshit on this site about how therapy is neurotypical bullshit and isn’t worth it and how exercise is pointless and good diet is pointless and that therapy homework is pointless DRIVES ME UP THE FUCKING WALL

Exercise is fucking important. good diet is fucking important therapy is fucking important. WHY???

because pills alone don’t help. they improve the hormonal imbalance (as does exercise and good diet which ALSO are a form of very real self care as your physical being is sorta connected to your mental one but go fucking figure right?), but guess what? the suicidal thoughts, the thoughts of harm, the thoughts of hating yourself, they’re still there.  suicides actually increase when medicated.  why? because suddenly you have the energy to fulfill thoughts of harming yourself.  which is why you NEED therapy alongside pills.

it has taken you years, or decades to create your maladaptive thought processes and behaviours.  that shit doesn’t disappear overnight. core beliefs don’t change overnight. these are the very fucking core of your personhood, your being and personality. THAT TAKES TIME TO CHANGE

STOP ACTING LIKE THERAPY IS SHIT IF IT DOESNT WORK IN TWO SESSIONS

^This!!!!!

The stigma that therapy isn’t worth it if you don’t feel better after the first couple sessions is such bullshit. It took me 8 months to tell my therapist anything personal but I kept going because I wanted to get better. I thought it was bs too when she kept telling me to think about other things and to distract myself when I have intrusive thoughts (not exact words whatsoever). Now it’s 2 and a half years later and I can successfully switch from thinking about all the ways I could kill myself to the song Slippery by Migos and immediately start laughing. You need to let it help you.

Y'all just need to find a good therapist and actually let them help, and help yourselves.

I needed to see this 

I legit felt WORSE after my first couple of therapy sessions because I had to open up and deal with emotions that I would much rather push far, far down and away. But eventually I got through it and I have a better sense of myself and I’m doing LOADS better and can even now calmly discuss things that used to make me cry. Just. Therapy is very helpful, if you get the right therapist and give it time.

actually feeling worse is very common after hard sessions where you deal with a lot of shit, so yeah, everybody just keep pushing through.  in my experience as a therapist the ones for whom therapy doesn’t work are the ones who expect instant results or for the therapist to fix their problems for them.  that’s not how it works.

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parallels

what does this mean

Wakanda is Fergalicious

T’Challa stans fergie and idk how to handle it

I got that boom boom pow…

Them chickens jackin my style.. they try to copy my swagga

Im on some next shiiiit now

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I don’t know what to do with this information.

You’ve already done the lords work so idk what else you could do with this information

Clearly, Wakanda is 3000 and 8 while the rest of the world is 2000 and late like did you even watch the movie :/ ?

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