I draw sometimes...

I don't want to have to be an influencer in order to have my book published. Social media makes me want to cut ties with the world and become the mythical woman who lives in the woods.

The thing is, I had such a productive day. It was such a good day. I got so much editing done on my book, and its really starting to feel like something special (at least to me). But, then I got thinking about how no one is ever going to read my book because I don't have 5k instagram followers, or connections in the publishing world. I don't have connections in any world. It's physically painful for me to try and reach out to anyone to read my book, even my friends! If I can't even get my close friends to read my work, then how in the hell am I supposed to get other people to read it as well???

I need beta readers. I guess that's what I'm trying to get at here. I need strangers to read my book that I wrote on microsoft word 2007 and tell me if it's absolute garbage or not. Because the thing is, I don't know if its garbage. I might love it. But you know, that whole thing with trash and treasure. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET PEOPLE TO READ MY BOOK.

And that's not even mentioning the fact that I'm fucking terrified. But, I've already ranted about that before so I'll not get into that whole mess right now.

Honestly I should probably just end this here before I get carried away any more than I already have.

What's the point of all this music if I'm not here to dance with you?

Yes, another drawing of Louisa and Reeve dancing. I like to draw them dancing. They dance a lot. Also yes, another blue dress for Louisa. I like blue. But look I gave Reeve a new color! I don't think I've ever drawn him in yellow before.

Maybe one of these days I'll stop being a chicken and add a quote from their story in the caption?

is 100,000 words too many?

if so, I might have a problem.

adding the final touches to my story and its just about ready for outside eyes to read it. which is so scary because I have to ask people to read it and for their opinions. I'm so terrified I'm delusional and my story is actually bad and I wasted the past two years of my life.

does spending the day creating a playlist for my story count as writing my story?

My OCs, Louisa and Reeve. I'm actually really happy with how this turned out. I saw this old picture on pinterest and thought it would be fun to recreate it with these two.

just some snipbits of what I've been working on today... but I gotta stop now before by brain breaks.

Louisa and Reeve of course. My ocs.

I watched Blue Eye Samurai. I don't know if I'll ever recover from it. Um. Yeah. Episode 5 was one of the best things I have ever seen. I need season 2.

I bought a record player earlier this year and it turned out to be such a good year to have bought a record player. I'm sitting here writing my novel and listening to the ATLA sountrack on vinyl and I couldn't be happier.

(well I could be happier because my record player is on the opposite side of my room than where I sit and write and I have to keep getting up to flip the record over or switch to the next one)

Important information about Reeve.

Oh my god look I did a background! Too bad I kind of hate it. Anyway... Reeve has a tattoo.

I plan on drawing a full cast of characters from my novel. I realized I've only ever drawn Reeve and Louisa and that makes me a little sad for the others.

Although, now that I've said this, I'll probably never draw them. Knowing me.

can I count how many times I've read my own WIP as one of my books for my goodreads reading goal???

I was going through all my old art of Louisa and Reeve (back when he was known as Connor) today during a writing break and I just am so stupidly proud of how far they've come and who they are. And it's silly because I created them, all their growth and character development came from me. But, I'm not nearly as proud of myself as I am of them. My babies are all grown up and I'm so proud of them.

I don't know just silly things. Feel free to ignore this.