🦋deadpainter💀

So confused but also just trying to live in the moment and not over complicate things

Time and time again it proves I can’t keep friends

I keep getting energy that my friend secretly hates me and wants my life :(

Someone threw three koi fish on the concrete floor on the nyc floor and that shit hurt me so bad seeing them dead and abandoned like that. I’m tempted to paint that memory.

I want to scream and cry and cry and scream

I’m in a 230 lbs meat prison

Today I hate everyone, myself, my life

My demons are putting up one hell of a fight

I am literally so disgusting how do men even like me