one breath at a time

i love you so so so much but i just feel like you genuinely do not feel the same about me and i don’t like to mention it because i know you’ll just tell me that you do but that just makes me feel more crazy like my feelings aren’t valid and i’ve been feeling this way for a while and it honestly sucks. it feel like you never like to talk to me or tell me anything. I mean you’re going to MD& NJ this week and if i didn’t mention it you probably wouldn’t have even told me how long you were going for or who was driving or literally anything about it. i feel like i don’t excite you or evoke any kind of passion in you at all. i just can’t imagine being in love with someone yet not having the desire to tell your person as soon as you hear something exciting or something you think will put a smile on their face or even when your upset and you wanna go to someone and that person not being me. you never even talk about our future anymore or any kind of dreams you have. when we started dating we were going to drive cross country together, we had so many things we wanted to do and we would talk about your music and after college and all kinds of stuff and now i just feel like you don’t talk about that kind of stuff because you don’t see a future with me or because you’re talking to somebody else about all that stuff. i know you’re probably just going to tell me it’s all in my head again and that’s not really how it is but either way i had to get that off my chest.

same with these