So it’s been almost a year since I “closed” this blog but you know, I still lurk.  And I’m still a person who loves fandom and fan culture so much. And as I’ve mentioned before, I’ve become a massive BTS fan so if you happen to stan them too, follow me on twitter!  Also, I do check in on things here every so often so don’t hesitate to send messages.  I’m still, ya know, me.

This will probably be deleted later but I felt like posting.  Hope everyone is doing well <3

*peeks head around a corner*

Hi, I’m randomly missing 1D today.

*goes back into hiding*

Love you, goodbye.

Hey guys,

So I’m not really on this blog anymore. Ever, really. As some of you may have noticed.

I’ll be honest, I think I really thought a reunion would have happened by now or a timeframe would be clear now that we’re a few years into it. Maybe I was naive to think that but I really didn’t think it’d be this long, but that’s just me. And while I’m so proud of the OT4 for all they’ve accomplished on their own, that’s not where my interests lie when it comes to my blog.

Real life has also been.....a lot since the hiatus began.  I got a full time job, moved out, had a lot of medical stuff, and just had a pretty big birthday. I am now at the point where I am trying to find ways to make some big changes and start some new chapters in my life.

Maybe making a post like this wasn’t necessary but after all the amazing times I had here, I hated just being so absent without really having closure.  I always said I’d be around whenever the boys come back and I still will be, if and when that happens, just on my own and in my own time.

While I am a busy, stressed out, overwhelmed mess about 90% of the time, I am trying to be present in blogging again but back where my interests have always been - writing about fandom and fan culture.  I do have my personal blog that you can follow (and yes, I won’t ignore it, I’ve become a huge BTS fan and post about them there) and I really am going to try to start writing again over there and build up a presence again.

So yeah, this is kind of coming out of nowhere but I wanted some closure, it felt weird all these months to just be gone without really being gone.

Thank you for being the joy I needed in a dark time. Thank you for being kind and understanding. And thank you for fangirling over the OT4 with me, it was a blast.

Love always,

Lauren xx

In case anyone was wondering, I am currently recovering from my valve replacement procedure.  It hasn’t been the easiest or most comfortable thing, and things in the hospital weren’t great, but I’m doing alright.

Hi friends,

A quick life update for anyone who may be interested:

2 weeks ago I underwent a few cardiac procedures to prepare for a valve replacement. Ever since, my doctors and I have been fighting with insurance who would prefer I have open heart surgery rather than a less invasive procedure.

Thankfully, I finally received insurance approval and in one week I will receive my shiny new valve :)

Please keep thinking those happy and healthy thoughts for me if you can, and thank you for your support <3

Lauren