A Study in Contrasts

Now that I've started applying to jobs I live in constant fear that my phone will ring. Dear god please let any recruiters that reach out do so by email.

This feels like old times in the worst way possible. Yet another major milestone in my life that I am clumsily tripping over. I feel like I am trying to navigate through an obstacle course in pitch darkness. Where the fuck am I going? How am I supposed to just know what I am doing? Yet another big life transition that has left me feeling like I learned all of my lines, memorized the entire script, and then someone sent me onto the wrong stage and expects me to perform an entirely different play. Can I at least get a prompt? I mean jesus christ, don't just let me drown.