“The JYJ” Magazine Vol. 2: My Dear The JYJ
To be together no matter what, sharing the joys as well as the sorrows. When bearing a friend’s pain together, even if the tears shed are the same, your own pain is actually more acute than your friend’s.
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Jaejoong and Junsu said, “We cried the most for Yuchun.”
Last March, when Yuchun’s father passed away, they shed more tears than Yuchun. Although Yuchun was part of the bereaved family, he could not keep crying and grieving.
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JJ: “I really cried a lot. Yuchun’s father passed away, but Yuchun had to receive all the people who came to pay their respects, so he forced himself to suppress his grief and be very strong to receive everyone. Seeing him like that, my heart was in so much pain it felt like it would split apart. I wanted to cry it all out for him. He just kept fighting back his tears, suppressing his sorrow. But I was so helpless, there was nothing I could do for him, I could only cry.”
JS: “While gently comforting him and telling him, ‘Be strong’, I was also thinking I must stay by Yuchun always to keep watch over him. From the mourning hall to the cemetery, looking at Yuchun’s silhouette from the back, I couldn’t hold it back any more and I cried. When we were giving a silent tribute to his father who is in eternal rest, I was holding Yuchun and saying, “Be strong,” but I knew at these times words are useless and so my heart was in even more pain.”
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Yuchun and Junsu who are of the same age, and Jaejoong who is one year older (T/N: by Korean age. All are born in 1986). Their relationship is more than just friendship; they are family and have become one. To the degree that they specially understand one another.
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Jaejoong can see through Yuchun and Junsu to deep within their hearts. Because they have been together through such a long period of time, what they are thinking can be known without saying a word.
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JJ: “For Yuchun, just based on feeling, I will know. If his thoughts and actions are not in line, I will know at once. Junsu also, I can see through him at a glance. But conversely, they probably don’t really know what I’m thinking?!”
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But! Jaejoong’s thinking is wrong!
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JS: “120% I know! Just looking at his expression and behaviour, I will know if he is in a good or bad mood, or if there is something troubling him, I know it all! I will ask him why he said those words and I will ask in detail.”
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As such, there are no secrets between them. They cannot cover it up even if they wanted to. Even those times when the heart throbs because of one-sided love that you absolutely do not want anyone to know about.
JS: “Whatever I’m doing, they know it all. Even love. If I count, there are 5? I am very open and clear but the other 2 don’t really say, hahaha!
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YC: “I’ve had one-sided love before. But before I could tell my members, it was realised. I like older women that I can talk and connect with, those with clear thoughts. I see them as real women from age 30 onwards. I think even at 40, my thinking will not change.
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Said without any hesitation. Yuchun does not hide himself when he is with his members. But if there is something about them that he does not know, he will not pursue it. At these times, he says, ”Do I really have to know that? I don’t think that I want to know everything. Each person has his own things to pursue, the way of living is also different. I feel that knowing everything may not necessarily be good. If you have to know everything, every single movement, that is your own willful and selfish desire, isn’t it?”
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From Yuchun’s words, it is also expressed that the members have built very deep trust among them. Not just knowing the situation at once by sensing the other’s breath, even if they don’t intentionally look and intentionally try to know, they will naturally understand one another. Just like that, the deep bond of trust like brothers, much more than friends, they will continue to run on from here. While keeping watch over Yuchun when he had to bear his greatest sorrow in the world, the tears that flowed from Jaejoong and Junsu must be the most beautiful crystals in the world.
Picture Credit: ayano_jyj
Trans from Jap-Chin: 119
Trans from Chin-Eng: Christie
