today i reduced my meltdown to a quick chair-tipover and some general sassyness with the air instead after i got sprayed all over the face and shirt with dishwater that potentially had raw chicken traces on it from a stupid fucking kitchen glove.

the neighbor i still probably woke up will never know how hard i try.

Shoutout to my 4 am impromptu bitch bakery sandwich with vanilla sugar on top that just covered my entire desk in a cloud of white after I started giggling with it right as I was taking a bite and the air from my nose turned my black hole of an apartment into a starry sky.

it never got better

To those that think mental illness... #2

To those of you that think a relationship is not necessary in a life, and like to tell someone this when they express great loneliness and sadness over the prospect of maybe living an entire life without love...

Love is not a basic need, but it is a human need. You may not starve to death without it, but you won’t feel okay. Just because it’s trendy to say “incel” and make a joke out of people with problems around relationships due to many things including mental illness - a life long struggle - doesn’t mean it is nice to do so.

If you were to turn the tables upon yourself and consider having to be cut off from everything in love, closeness and all the joy and challenges that comes with, usually it’s suddenly a problem and suddenly a necessity in life.

People who have this in their life already tend to not understand because they have no idea how it feels to be alone for that long. No, not everyone is asexual/aromantic, and just because you can imagine it doesn’t mean everyone else can. They have no reference for what it does to how you feel about yourself either.

You do not tell someone without food that starving 30% of a month won’t kill you and that you would be able to live an entire life like that without complaints. You just don’t say to the prospect of being alone for a lifetime either.

To those that think mental illness... #1.

To those of you who think that if you have a mental illness you’re not ready for a relationship and that you should understand to stay out of them... Mental illness isn’t a fucking weekend flue. It’s a life long problem.

There is no real cure for these things, and therapy to fix them may very well take an entire lifetime.

You do not have the right to tell anyone else whether they deserve love and closeness in their entire life or not for them. They are human beings with their own needs and wants.

Shut the fuck up.