Late night/early morning escapism word vomit
I cannot sleep and I don’t know what else I can do right now to ease that other than trying to type everything in my head out. I want to get out of my body, I'm so damn anxious. Fleeing seems like the only thing that is going to shock my system. How to flee? That I am uncertain. I picture myself running down the road as is, t-shirt and underwear - too cold. Taking my own life? I can’t, I have too many responsibilities and leaving loved ones with grief fills me with too much guilt to even contemplate a how-to scenario. Hopping on a flight to ‘wherever’ was always nice when I worked for an airline. Get a couple days off and just go somewhere to be where you’ve never been before. Culture shock was great therapy. Walking dogs has been such great therapy lately, but I've only been able to hold a walk a week min. due to the low demand. I can’t just make people give me their dog to walk. Ugh, and school. I’ve had zero motivation to do homework, go to class, or do assignments. It’s fucking awful. How am I suppose to make myself into a successful, happy person if I can’t even do the bare minimum in class standards. Always making myself feel worse in this regard. Which circles myself right back around to fleeing. Escapism, something I crave constantly. Get me out. Take me away. Free me of responsibilities. I feel broken. I’ve felt broken since 2017. Like I'll never be able to fix this. Like it’s only getting worse. Never good enough. Never smart enough. Faulted. How am I suppose to make myself go to bed right now. I can’t calm down my thoughts, they just race and race in circles.
“A global climate strike is under way, with millions of people protesting for “an end to the age of fossil fuels and climate justice for everyone”.”
I wish people, including my father wouldn’t ignore the facts.
I want to be immersed.
Wishing I were back in Iceland.
What are 5 random things about yourself most people wouldn’t guess?(you can answer less if 5 is too hard)
Well @just-another-monday, it’s your lucky day. I’m back to tumblr, as I always end up doing. It’s hard to say what most people wouldn’t guess about me, but let me begin to try:
1. I live with my mom again after I swore I would never move back in with my parents.
2. I’m faking it until I'm there.
3. I walk dogs, and it’s like paid therapy.
4. I’m bi-sexual
5. I want to live in a different country.
The sand in Okinawa, Japan, is made up of tiny stars! These ‘stars’ are exoskeletons of marine protozoans that lived on the ocean floor up to 550 million years ago.
If you think about it, walking on that beach is like walking on an ocean of ancient skeletons
True
Pelea a muerte
Me trying to impress dates.
via weheartit
“The Geologic History of Earth. Note the timescales. We are currently in the Holocene, which has been warm and moist and a great time to grow human civilization. But the activity of civilization is now pushing the planet into a new epoch which scientists call the Anthropocene.”
Read Climate Change And The Astrobiology Of The Anthropocene at NPR by Adam Frank.
yorkshire.fossils
Here’s one of our Golden ‘Cannon Balls’. ⚽️These limestone rocks are naturally coated in a pyritic metal which allows us to polish them gold 😏 Every now and again, one of these rocks contains an Eleganticeras ammonite - unusually, this one contains LOTS of specimens!! Approximately only 1 in 12 of these rocks contain any ammonites at all, this is truly a rare find indeed. We’d love to give you all one but they’re just so hard to find!! 😯😵
Big slabs