demons
my demons have gotten the best of me
and they have gotten the worst of me
my demons are not a part of me for the least
they are an embodiment of who I was
somehow they want to catch up with me
they want to eat me alive
my demons were always a part of me even when
what people don’t understand about the demons and I
are the fact that they are me
what I used to let in my past
they are something that I am not proud of
yet they mean everything to me
I have been with my demons for so long
that without them, I am lost
I would always be lost without them
my demons are something that I am
they are someone who I would have been if I didn't let them in
what I realized is that even though
they aren’t the embodiment of who I am now
they will always be a part of me
they will always control who I am
always whispering in my ear
‘let us in for we know what’s best for you’
letting them in was the one of the worst things I ever done before
because of my demons who still haunts me til this day
I have depression and anxiety
because of what they want from me
I became someone I don’t know
they made me realize that I didn’t know who I was beforehand
but letting go of my pasts
they want me to let go of everything I care about
showing me that I am nothing
for I really am nothing without them
for I am just part of something
that I am fighting for something in vain
that fighting against them will do nothing
something I realized is that
and I've been fighting both of them for so long
maybe I should’ve accepted both demons and angels
for I am fighting something in vain