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Journey Through My Crazy Life

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Christian, Wife, Foster Mom, & Infertile. Living with Hashimoto's & Endometriosis. Hoping and praying desperately for a biological baby of our own. TTC since 2011 First miscarriage in Feb 2011 at 6 wks, unexplained loss, most likely a chemical...
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To what do I owe this pleasure?!

2 days in a row baby man has slept in!! Yesterday we slept until 9:30! 9:30 people!!!! You know how incredible that is!! This morning I'm up and it's 8:40 but baby man is still snoozing away I think I just might have some coffee :) And in other scary news....and a note to self. ......baby man needs to be buckled into his swing at all times! Last night we had a falling-out-of-the-swing incident. No harm no foul though. I get a free pass on this one guys. New mom here! I heard a thump and crying then my heart dropped!! But when I picked him up and examined him then cuddled him he was ok Phew

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Let's pull the race card...

Why is it that if I, as a white woman, take in, love, and accept a black foster child, I'm accused of taking that child from their heritage and culture and trying to "make them white"..... But if I turn down a black foster child then im racist? Please someone tell how that is fair for me? For a loving mother like figure to accept a child no matter what race they are, separate from my own, why I am suddenly the bad guy? In either situation I can't win! Listen!! If a "black" baby gets put into foster care, it's their "black" parents fault! Not my "white" self's fault!! All im doing is opening up my entire life and home and heart to a child that needs love regardless of their race! You can't have it both ways! You are not allowed to bash me! You also can't expect racial equality if you yourself are putting limitations on transracial foster care or adoption.

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itcanbedoneladies yes! We borrowed one from a friend and so far he has a love/hate relationship with it. He loves it but hates that he can't get free from it so he fights and struggles to break free until he falls asleep but he sleeps for longer when he is in it

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Every five minutes.....

……the baby wakes up crying.

No exaggeration. It’s every. 5. Minutes.

Unless im sitting straight up holding him and rocking slowly back and forth.

Otherwise, no matter how I lay him down, where I lay him down, or who I lay him with (ie in our bed with hubby and i, on top of my chest) he won’t sleep longer than 5 minutes.

I just want to cry and then crumble into a bajillion pieces on the floor and sleep for a year

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Celebrating The Newsons!

Today we are having a goodbye party for our very first placement, sibling set of three kiddoes, ages 8, 4, and 2! Its basically just a dessert party, open house style. This will be their last weekend with us since Court is Friday the 13th and the Caseworker has already set up the game plan for getting all of their things moved right after court. It’ll be interesting to see who actually shows. I’m sure it’ll be just family but I invited about 50 people total and I’ll put money that only about 15 show up. But, ya know, thats ok! There have been only a few very crucial people that have been involved in their lives enough that they will remember them! The rest are people that I wished would have been more involved….but just wouldn’t take the time or make the effort. It’s sad. In a year, there are family members that have never once come to see them or properly meet them. They didn’t show up to their birthday parties. They didn’t participate in school fundraisers and other activities. they just didn’t make the effort that these kids deserved. And frankly it’s their loss, not ours. I’d rather these kids have known the people that were really going to be there for them.

On a side note….I’m beginning to feel the sadness of detachment. I can’t believe im saying goodbye to my first babies

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Just had a child and family conference call with the kids caseworker, mom, grandma, and counselors. Looks like everything is set for their return home IN 3 MORE WEEKS!!! Eek!!! How exciting for everyone!!!

Bio dad was released from prison today and will be living with his mother so the kids will no longer get visits with her…shucks…*sarcasm*

In other news….we have had baby man for 2 full weeks and have had no contact with dcfs. We don’t know who his caseworker is. We don’t know the direction the case is going. But as far as I’m concerned, they can take their time, it’ll just drag the case on and that means we get more time with this little love bug! We did get a clothing and equipment voucher though thanks to our licensing worker so hubby and I are heading to target tonight to get diapers, wipes, clothes, etc…

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Smiles for miles every single day! He's such a wonderful miracle :D

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