Ode to Hobbes

I couldn't help but think of you at last nights celebration. I remember when it was you reading the passion of Christ. It brought tears to my eyes that you weren't there with us, and aren't with us anymore. Something that has been on my mind is when people say, "I know they're in Heaven". I don't say anything to negate what they think or feel, but a part of me wonders, how can someone say this when we really don't know. Is it just sentimental? What will I say, feel, or believe when someone so close to me dies. Not that you weren't close to me, but perhaps when I'm faced with a stronger reality of death, I might say the same thing. I miss you, and I think of you so often.

I miss you so much man, I just want to play dnd again. Or I wish we could have played MTG a couple of times, that would have been so fun. The four of us playing magic.

God, I keep making mistakes at work. It’s so frustrating. It just adds to everything else that’s constantly on my mind.

It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Admin. is not on your side. It’s not like I really believed this, but I didn’t think it would be shown to me in such a trivial and overblown way. I work for my community, and the people, not for them. That’s what matters.

You reminded me so much of Jason Mraz. You were legit my padrino.

I can’t believe it. He was one of the only people who listened to me. He didn’t see me as a naive kid, maybe he did, if he did, he didn’t show it. He was a great man, who loved his children so much. I can’t believe he’s gone. I loved him, and I missed him when he stopped walking. And now, I’ll miss him in an entirely different way. I just can’t believe it.

God of War is great.

I lost all my game data for breath of the wild. Fuck.

I would have graduated this past Saturday. I feel kinda sad, I know I made the right decision but there is a lot of little and big things that make me feel stupid and wrong. It’s a lot.

Do I feel ready, hell no. Only a few years ago things were different, I was waiting at a bus stop in the early morning to go to class. Now I'm awake at night, not watching Youtube (well, I am right now actually) but waiting for my son to come in a few hours? Hopefully. Crazy huh. Way to crazy man.

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