To: Humanity

What is going on in our world? 

First there was the Charleston Church shootings where nine individuals were left dead. Second, an issue that hits very close to home, there is a man who is openly attacking Asian women around New York City because of his claimed “numerous amounts of rejection” from Asian women on the streets, and because he thinks that because Asian women won’t stop on the street to talk to him they are all racist towards African American men. 

Events like these make me sad for humanity. I never thought such stages of mental illness and hate crimes would result in such awful events like these. It’s saddening that as an Asian woman like myself, I feel unsafe on the streets of Manhattan...where there are hundreds of people walking around me at any given time of day.

Please pray for humanity.

Lo Siento

I’m sorry it’s been almost half a year since my last post.

The past six months have been hectic. For one, I have finally graduated college! The week before graduating college, I participated in my first ever running event, the Brooklyn AirBNB Half Marathon, I participated in my second ever running event Oakley Women’s Mini 10K, and I am trying hard to continue on this lifestyle. It’s so hard to stay focused and stay committed...and I found that it is even harder for me to eat healthy. Keep me in your thoughts and hope I can stay on the right path! 

I hope every one else is doing amazing, I can’t wait to endlessly scroll through my Tumblr feed to see what every one has been up to.

A Letter to my Hurting Friend

I won't even bother to ask how you are, because I know you're hurting. Things have been going downhill and you should not blame yourself in any way. Because it's not your fault. There is no circumstance where it is okay for a man to lay a hand on a woman. There is no circumstance where that thought should even pass through his head. 

I know he was your first love. When things were perfect, things were indeed perfect (or at least it seemed that way). Sure, he knew the right things to say. But you know that saying that is getting annoying as hell, the saying that is "actions speak louder than words"? It's so true. And everything that has been going on the past few weeks are not examples of love on his part.

Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not irritable, nor is it resentful. Love is not jealousy, nor is it violent. Once violence starts, it is indeed hard to let go of the one you love who has hurt you. All of the days, weeks and months of emotionally and physically investing in this person seems to be all a waste of time and ultimately, bullshit. It hurts, I know. And I hurt for you. But understand that even the one you love will disappear one day not because of a broken relationship but because of life. At the end of the day, you are the only person you can count on and take care of. So be strong and stand up for yourself. Love yourself and all will fall into place.

A martini a day keeps the doctors away. (I totally just made that up)

Bars closing, night starts to fade Last memory, is you walking away

Find a Man Who:

My beautiful gfs

Successful Lives

Last week I had two customers who were getting a little drunk off of Vodka sodas but they pulled me over to ask me: What does success in life mean?

I told them, "Success isn't defined by the amount of money in our wallets because money comes and goes so fast. I feel success in life is having those people (family and friends) around you who will never ever leave you through thick and thin and will love you unconditionally. Following passions, loving unconditionally, and giving freely".

One of the customers nodded in agreement and told me he had every one of those things, family and friends, but because of his greed for money, power, and lust, he lost most of those said things. Think of Leonardo DiCaprio's life in Wolf of Wallstreet, like that. It was so odd and humbling to actually meet someone who lived that kind of lifestyle

Maybe he was just extremely intoxicated and was basically drinking his sorrows away. But it was definitely a daily reminder (and a random one, to say the least), that of all the conversations we would be having, we would be having a conversation about what we think success in life is.

"Loving every minute cause you make me feel so alive". Last weekend with the people who complete me

My sweet, sweet baby

Chrissy Teigen is by far my favorite human being/celebrity because she simply speaks her mind and is the most humble and hilarious person on earth. She is such a beautiful human being!!

Just scroll through her Instagram (full of fat-face and food pictures) and Twitter (where she is witty certainly not afraid to snap back at rude haters). 

In her most recent interview with DuJour Magazine, she says about a Forever21 photoshoot she had:

“I showed up on set and they asked me if they could take a photo,” Teigen told the magazine. “And they shoot that photo off to my agency, who then calls me as I’m sitting in the make-up chair, and they say, ‘You need to leave right now. They just said that you are fat and you need to get your measurements taken.’”

Omg!!! What this world needs more of is real women who are successful at what they do by being simply themselves rather than being what society thinks they should be. We need more Chrissy Teigen's who simply love themselves and are not afraid to show it. 

But hey..sucks for Forever21. Look where Chrissy is in life now. And with all this negative publicity out there for Forever21, "I bet it sucks to be you right now".

(w)allow

I've recently stumbled upon a book called Constructive Wallowing: How to beat bad feelings by letting yourself feel them.

We are faced with so many different emotions daily that we may not even be able to comprehend the root of the emotions unless we dissect and dig a little deeper. One lesson I've learned throughout the months is that all emotions are good. Feeling happy is good. Feeling angry is good (It only becomes bad when we take the angry emotion and project them onto others). 

The word wallow, as described by Tina Gilbertson, is when you let yourself experience your true feelings, where no one can se eor hear what you're doing, so it's just between you and yourself. When it's just you and yourself, no one else can hear you or possibly be offended by your feelings.

Constructive (w)allowing has two main points:

1. Letting yourself take the feelings and taking them to understand them creates a more compassionate relationship between you, the being, and your emotions. It is important to recognize that the feelings you experience are very much part of you as whole. Thus, getting to the point where you accept your feelings means you accept yourself as you are.

2. (W)allowing allows you to face your feelings the moment you feel them rather than pushing it aside and dealing with them later down the road. With that being said, constructive wallowing allows you to deal with the negativity you are experiencing so that after you experience that negativity, you won't necessarily face it again.

Say you are upset because you made a huge mistake at work. Yes, of course you are going to be angry at yourself and feel like an idiot but rather than beating on yourself or pushing it aside to deal with it later, the correct thing to do is to take a deep breath, sit aside, and think to yourself why am I this angry? What can I do next time to make sure it doesn't happen again?

I believe that for everyone to reach their the true path to happiness, they must be honest and true to themselves. With constructive (w)allowing, you are able to reflect on your previous actions, humble yourself, and see to it that next time it will be a different scenario. You will learn how to take your own side and set yourself free from the annoying self-criticism that is 99% not even necessary. 

Surrounding yourself with positive people and good energy is healthy for the soul!!! These people are some of many who make my world go 'round