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if poc in the fandom speaking up about how disappointed with taylor’s activism makes you upset or uncomfortable, ask yourself why you care more about coddling and protecting your white fave over the feelings of fans who have supported taylor for years that expected far more from her when she’s done the bare minimum.
@taylorswift i don’t want to overwhelm you with my traumatic life story or to come across like im desperate but unfortunately.. i am. and i have been since before this whole thing happened and now it’s just set me back even further. i hate myself for even doing this... but i can’t afford my medical bills or student loans and now ive been cut off from my psychiatrist bc i cant pay... if you happen to see this? <3
paypal: x if anyone else is able to help even just a couple dollars would mean the world to me. <3
thank you endlessly to everyone who has signal boosted this or has reached out to me <3 i love you all so much and even though things are really dark right now it’s so nice to know i have my taylor swift family to lean on when im not hanging in there so well. y’all are the best souls ive ever encountered.
My good friend, Jess, already made a post which you can read here. I didn’t want to ask for help for obvious reasons so Jess did for me. I have received over $4,000 through this gofundme and I can’t begin to explain how grateful I am for just that. However, because of recent and very unexpected changes, I went from thinking that I owed the hospital $7,000 to now owing them $42,000. So I’m making my own post to raise awareness to this because of how much I need any help that I can get.
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Having to type this out is one of the hardest things that I’ve ever done, but I’m asking for help from the bottom of my heart.
My name is Kylee, I am 20 years old. In September of 2018, I traveled to St. Louis, MO with one of my best friends to see Taylor Swift on her reputation Stadium Tour. I could not attend as on the day before the concert, I was met with the most excruciating pain I have ever felt in my life. My appendix had burst inside of my body. I spent ten days in the hospital after I underwent a procedure to have my appendix removed laparoscopically. My appendix burst and was in the worst condition that my surgeon said she had ever seen. I did not get to leave the hospital until 10 days later because of the complications that came along with my surgery. The infection almost spread to my bloodstream which meant that I was borderline septic and because of this I was put on several antibiotics that did not seem to be working for me until they put a tube in my stomach. On top of the tube, I had to have a PICC line entered into my arm which went from my forearm all the way to my chest.
After I was released from the hospital, the PICC line and the tube in my stomach remained for almost a month. I met with a nurse every single week and my parents had to do nearly everything for me as I was on bed rest. This proved to be both mentally and physically taxing in a way that I had never experienced before. I felt absolutely helpless. I knew the bills were going to be astronomical but I was not anticipating $42,000. I was ordered bed rest and because of this, had to quit the job that I was with at the time which provided me benefits, but still did leave me with $42,000 to cover myself.
I am now at a job that provides me no benefits and a significantly lower paygrade. My state given insurance does not go back far enough to cover any of my medical expenses.On top of these medical expenses, I have my own bills to pay and my mother nor father can help with it due to the low income that they receive through social security and disability. I help pay for bills in my house, food, food for my pets, car insurance payments, my phone bill, gas, etc. I am $42,000 in debt with no way of knowing how I will pay for it.
I am a student and someone who rarely asks for help as it isn’t the easiest thing to do. I have dealt with financial hardship my entire life and I know I will get through this but this amount is unlike anything I’ve ever had to deal with. I desperately do not want to spend the rest of my life in debt. If you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to contact me here or via my twitter.
Please, please, please reblog or donate if you can. As Jess said in her post, if you can’t donate much–or at all– don’t worry. Every little bit helps and I’m so grateful for the help that I’ve received so far. I will accept a penny, a dollar, anything. Even a simple reblog does more than you can even imagine. Again, please reblog or donate if you can. Thank you.
okay i want you guys to know i’m not doing this for taylor or her attention. i ran into a very desperate financial situation earlier today. i’m negative by HUNDREDS of dollars in my bank account right now and i won’t be getting any paychecks for the foreseeable future. i have no idea how long i’ll be out of work. i have to pay bills, rent for my apartment, and board for my horse. i could lose my horse if his board goes unpaid for a month. i’m at stake to lose EVERYTHING right now. housing, my car, and my horse. i’m literally buying food with change leftover in my purse right now and i won’t be able to get any food or gas once the change is gone. i’m so scared, i’ve never been in a situation like this before. i’m desperate.
IF you’re in a position to help or want to, my venmo is @/leahwraz. if you’re not in a position to help, please please share this post for me. i will accept any and all help i can get right now, just to scrape by.
i really don’t like asking for money, it makes me feel embarrassed and guilty and uncomfortable. but i just looked at my bank statement for the first time since corona hit, and i don’t have enough money to pay rent after April.
i am a freelance touring music photographer and graphic designer. my income is rooted in two of the industries that have been hit the absolute hardest by this virus: the event industry and the music industry. i have not made any money since this pandemic started in early March, and every last gig I had lined up, every last dollar I was supposed to be making, has been cancelled for the foreseeable future. i will not have work until what is looking like fall at the earliest, and everything is closed so i cannot find a new job. I thought I had enough saved up to last at least a couple months. i don’t.
my life is in New York. my work is in New York. every friend i have (except for one in Georgia) is in New York. I have worked tooth and nail my entire life, made every decision I ever have since I was a sophomore in high school 10 years ago, to be able to be a touring music photographer. i have been homeless for it, i have risen above depression for it, i have crossed the united states and back a dozen times for hardly any pay for it, to get in the position i had been in before this. while i have definitely not hit full success yet, I was on the way. and that - and any kind of freelancing - is something you, under absolutely no circumstances, can do with an empty bank account / while living paycheck to paycheck due to the completely fluctuating nature of when and how you get paid.
i know a lot of people have a lot of problems right now. i know everyone is financially strapped right now. but there are only two things in this world that ever pulled me out of the darkest times of my life. there are only two things that have consistently provided me with the will to live, two things that have been the reason why i get out of bed in the morning for ten years: freelance photography and living in New York. and both of those things are about to be stripped from me. i feel like a corpse just thinking about it.
i’ve tried selling what i can (Lightroom Presets and prints), but no one wants to buy. I don’t have personal items I can sell because i don’t have a lot of clothes and i literally don’t own any other material items besides clothes, my camera, and one stuffed animal. the next step is beg for money on the internet and the next step is to basically be financially forced into selling nudes, and i really… really really really really do not want to sell nudes because it doesn’t really feel like consent if i’m financially forced into it.
so i’m sorry for even asking but please, if you have anything to spare. PLEASE. i’m on the brink of losing everything that’s ever sustained my will to live. i would appreciate it endlessly.
Venmo CashApp - $hollyturnerphoto Paypal - hollyturner0526@yahoo.com
official petition for taylor to get a huge group of us to go to the ama’s with her and scream sing her discography on stage instead of taylor performing. id love to watch scooty and bruschetta attempt to stop us. kiss my ass bitch boys.
That would be such a wonderful unique way of showing support
Madge/Maria my partner (via monickrowe)
Madge/Maria my partner
Lover (the song) on cassette is a vibe I could’ve never imagined.
Do yall remember the absurd amount of doors in the "I Know Places" live performance?
The song was all about how people hunted for glances into her love life and how she knew places where they could hide from the vultures.
It was also a song that released during a time that all of her relationships were very, very public.
In the Lover video, although she is in a dollhouse and subject to being watched by others, we only see glances of the relationship through a peep hole at first.
And this time, the doors between her public life and her private life are closed:
She's encouraging people to focus on her work, while also protecting and cherishing valuable relationships behind closed doors.
also. I think it's fair to note that, we only see the superficial rooms that face the open part of the dollhouse.
The hallway insinuates that there are many many rooms that we don't see.
It seems likely that she's also pointing out that we only see a very small part of her relationships and not the actual depths.
love story 💗 LOVER
not to still be emo over melodrama (2017) but doesnt it gut you that on pure heroine 400 lux is about driving in a car with someone and being mutually aware you have feelings for each other but arent ready to say it and then on melodrama hard feelings is about sitting in a car with someone and being mutually aware you dont love each other anymore like the parallels
“This is supposed to be over the course of 3 years. Like somebody told me ‘they think that you’re talking about one day’ and I was like ‘oh no, you’d never make it.’ You wouldn’t make it. You’d make it in 3 years. [Don’t threaten me with a good time] is something my British friends say all the time.”
— Taylor on the lyrics of ‘London Boy’ (BBCR1 Live Lounge)
Lover track list as butterflies (based on species names & behaviors)
♡ Lover photoshoot ♡
I love growing up with you Taylor💗
