i heard this community is going through a lot of struggling today after the news of what happened.

i hope people are doing alright. i feel horrible for the people that rped him and now have to hear that their fc isn’t what they thought they were.

spreading love to the community in this dark time <3

i’m posting something on here again?? what?? w o a h

i like to come here every now and then and see how far i’ve come? and seriously, i just...idk. it’s nice to know that things did get better. of course, my depression or anxiety isn’t completely gone. but i’ve controlled it. i stopped lying to everyone and started becoming the person i’ve always wanted to be.

i was so full of hatred. my life was such a fucking burden to me and i was a horrible person to most people i talked to. i made some shitty mistakes. i said some shitty things. but i know now that’s not who i am. i’m not as stressed. i’m not scared. i’m ready to grow up. and that’s pretty fucking cool :)

i came out a few months ago and ever since then, the world hasn’t been such a bad place. i’m finally being myself. i’m so much more open about my sexuality and expressing it and ngl it honestly makes me emotional whenever i think about it. i spent so long wanting to change that part of myself and now i finally accepted it. go d

i’m just really fucking happy.

those are words i never thought i’d get to say. years and years of thinking that i was pathetic and weak. thinking it’d be easier to just kill myself. and i’m fucking glad i never died because now i get to feel what happiness is and god it’s incredible. it’s the best thing i’ve ever felt.

i’m trying to be a better person. i know i wasn’t a good person in the past, but i’m working on it. i’ll never make any excuses for how i was, but i’ll try my hardest to be the best person i can be from now on. a person full of love and positivity.

idk. long post over. i just feel like i’ve come full circle in a way? back to staying away from here~

haven’t been on here in two months wOAH! not sure if anyone remembers me but hi i’m nicole and tbh i’m definitely 100% not coming back to this blog again because i feel genuinely happy. my whole life has changed for the better and i honestly believe that getting away from this blog has helped me so much.

to the people that were (and are still) nice on here, keep being cool! this community can be so toxic and i don’t want anyone to turn out bitter like i did from it. avoid the people that tear you down. if you have a bad feeling about someone or something on here, don’t follow it. just do you and be happy.

so this is goodbye and stuff

taking a break from this blog for now. i can’t deal with this kind of drama anymore, it’s killing me. if anyone wants to keep in touch, send me an ask and i can always give you my kik/instagram/personal blog/whatever.

i’ll definitely come back at some point, but not now. not for a while. i need time away from here, it’s what’s going to help me be sane again.

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but look at darren’s face ;_;

here we are

the show was amazing

oh lord

hEDWIG WAS AMAZING OGH MY LORD

HAHAHAHA FUCK ITA GONNA START KH T GOS

 help me

so today mitch grassi told me he loved me and blew me a kiss and took a selfie with me so  honestly i met my queen i don’t know what to sa yo oh mgod

OH MY GOD IM FUCKING OUT

i’m overwhelmed oh lord