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I hate the way my life is turning out. Good for nothing. In so much pain constantly. The person who is suppose to be my partner is poisoning me.

im not sure how long I can keep this up. Constantly lying to those I care about constantly. & for what? To be left an emotional mess while the one I consider “the best partner ever” puts headphones on to drown out the sound.

But im totally so happy. Kudos for being responsible, ik you got work in the morning.

I am not okay.

Emotionally I am so ruined.

I feel like a complete failure.

It’s even worse because my daughter. I love her but I still failed her. I’m an emotionally unstable parent & I hate myself for it even more. She deserves so much more than I can give her & have been giving her.

Does autopilot ever crash?

I don’t know how it’s gotten this far. I’m tired of trying and failing. I can’t even give up like I wish I could which is even worse.

I have no one to confide in & my headspace is so fucked. I’m not sure how much more I can take

being an adult is the loneliest thing. i have never felt so alone. My mental health is at a low. Life is feeling dull & v helpless.

im constantly on the verge of just quitting. im tired of constantly thinking and doing things wrong. to the point i have actually questioned my mental state.