It was on the eve before their battle that even Chitaqua’s seemingly fearless leader seemed entirely unconvinced of his own plans. Beyond unconvinced, even, he was terrified. Not for himself; Dean would happily welcome death if it meant being at peace and being reunited with his family, with Sam. Despite everything, despite his plan of the Chitaquans being a decoy for the real deal, he feared for them. He’d lead them so far astray, and in the morning, he was going to send them into certain death. He wasn’t a good leader. He was simply a man trying to make something of a world long since brought to ruin. And even if he was going to die tomorrow, he didn’t have very high hopes of being at peace; Lucifer still inhabited Sam’s body, which probably meant the younger Winchester was still trapped somewhere in his own mind. If he wouldn’t be able to bring Lucifer down, he at least hoped to liberate Sam from the horrid bed he’d made for himself. Just because he’d made it, didn’t mean Dean was going to let his brother lie in it.
He was thumbing the edge of his third glass of whiskey when a knock on the door pulled him from his thoughts, and he looked up as though it was going to help him see through the door. Likely Cas accepting his invitation for last night on Earth drinks, though there was still that sneaking suspicion in the back of his mind that it might be one of the women he’d shared beds with in the past couple days. Then again, the knock was by far not angry enough for it to be one of them.
“C’mon in, door’s open.”
Well, it wasn’t literally open, but at least unlocked. He had a habit of keeping his door open for the Chitaquans to walk right on in if they had something important for him (unless he was in company of one of the women), but tonight, he’d opted to close the door, yet leave it unlocked, as he was of too troubled a mind to burden the rest of the camp-inhabitants with his worried expressions and bad drinking habits, but not strained enough to lock his door and shut everyone out. If his followers needed support on this last night, they would get it.
for once, castiel actually waited for dean to invite him in. usually, he would burst right in, door closed or not. this was the apocalypse, there was no time for false embarrassment. if important news had to reach their leader, it did not matter who he was with at that time. or what he was doing.
in a fight for life or death, privacy was no priority.
castiel stepped in the cabin when he was told so, closing the door behind him. camp chitaqua would survive one more night without their leader as a hand holder. and it was calm anyway. the calm before the storm, the ex-angel knew that.
( he distantly remembered the atmosphere being similar just before the war against lucifer had taken place. but that had been such a long time ago, his memory might as well betray him. )
‘hello dean,’
he greeted, as he sat down across from the man, a table between them. the memories of their earlier fight still lingering, but castiel was willing to ignore those for now. if it was their last night on earth, he was going to make it enjoyable. for them both. dean deserved it.
for a longer moment, it was quiet. castiel poured himself a glass of whisky, then another. not the healthiest lifestyle, but who was there to judge him? god certainly wasn’t.
‘are you afraid, dean? of tomorrow?’
never would he have asked this, if this wasn’t their last night alive but it was so ----
‘are you afraid to die?’