I AM PROBLEMATIC

10 years is a long time.

usually that length of time expands as distance psychologically, and gives us space for healing, but obi-wan has not moved on at all—physically he's abiding in a liminal space on the edge of civilization, bound by a sort of invisible tether to anakin's child, and psychologically, he's still dreaming about him, still living in a fog. hearing anakin's name still makes him flinch like it's a physical blow.

the fact that after a decade he's still waking up with nightmares, still living in that same mental space full of unprocessed trauma, like he hasn't let himself process, despite all his solitude and time for meditation and reflection, he hasn't allowed himself to let go in all the ways that matter. he is still clinging on to the past, and it makes sense!! to lose your entire world, all your loved ones, betrayed and hunted. i wouldn't let go easily either.

he's really and truly not a jedi in the beginning of the show, because he's not practicing the jedi philosophy at all—he's not helping others. not letting go. it's like when he was enslaved on kadavo during the clone wars, and beaten when he tried to help others, until he stopped trying, because he thought it was better, that he couldn't help without harming. it sapped something vital from him, something that was missing in the show as well, until he made the choice to try.

the show has chosen a beautiful character arc for him, and one that is going to rip my heart into a thousand pieces. he is going to let go of anakin, and release that lingering, itching sense of failed ownership over his future. he is going to give up on anakin, and by doing so, he is going to gain resolve, purpose, and hope. he will find his way back to the force, hear the voice of qui-gon, and build a home, instead of lingering on the fringe of civilization like some kind of ghost.

it took 10 years for him to release his guilt and shame, and we get to watch him be freed from that chrysalis, bless and thank.

Disaster Trio Appreciation Week

Day 4: Soft

Ahsoka may look shocked but there is a good reason why she chose to ride with Obi-Wan instead, and at least Anakin has a soft landing

In her waters, deep and true Lie the answers, and a path for you Dive down deep into her sound Not too far …or you’ll be drown.

I am found.

I woke the spirits of the enchanted forest.

“From a magic as old as the glaciers were born the spirits of air, of fire, of water, and of earth. When at peace, we find in them the best of nature. But when enraged, the wind twists with furious gust. Fire burns all options to dust…”

                                                    ―The Secrets of the Magic Makers

True Love performance || Frozen the Musical - [part 1/ part 2] “True love comes right before the end of the show. It’s basically Anna having to accept the fact that she has made some poor decisions and that the thing she believed in for her entire life, the thing she really thought was going to come through for her- being true love- it did not work out the way she had planned at all. It’s kind of her accepting the responsibility for that.” - Patti Murin

True Love performance || Frozen the Musical - [part 1/ part 2] “This song completes the journey for Anna. We see this girl that’s full of hope in the beginning, and she still finds the hope in this song that is not so hopeful.” - John Riddle